i miss the white wine.
the smoothness, the richness, the sweetness.
i numbed with white wine.
just like what i need now,
numbness!
i look forward to tml's half day off!
:D
spoke at : 11:11 p.m.
it feels like a routine after some time.
to meet to part to meet and to part again.
i cann do w/o u, u cann do w/o me too.
was that the pact we had when we started out,
i cant rmb.
but i think i changed.
i feel like changing the rules.
Ha.
i want more than just mere touch and go.
i feel like settling down now.
i want more from you,
though you never gave me much.
i just dont like things now.
you were my happy pill,
and i would like it to continue down the road.
i dont feel like having any changes now.
it doesnt feel the same anymore.
why?
or, those only happens at the start.
things turned monotonous after awhile.
or, it just got sick.
sigh.
what do i want actually.
what do i have actually.
spoke at : 12:19 a.m.
2am:dessertbar!
the place to destress after a long long wk!
yumyum,
i love white wine!
:P
spoke at : 1:23 a.m.
i dont like myself.
im a frustrating woman who frustrates humans, like myself.
i dont understand why im born this way.
i dont understand why im brought up this way.
i dont understand why i handle things this way.
i dont understand why once i've self-lacking of sleep i get so frustrated with all the things that arent going smoothly,
and i dont understand myself.
i grumbles and mumbles.
i complains and screams.
im unsatisfied.
there is millions of things to talk about,
but i really dunno where to talk from.
when can i really find somebody to sit somewhere and talk whole day.
i need to let it out.
i need to sleep.
spoke at : 10:55 p.m.
if i have a chance to study forever,
i wanna study accountancy.
but it will be diploma.
cuz i love figures, but not to complicated.
i wanna study traditional chinese med.
i grew up with them, and i love them.
as in the way, i ate them in my growing years all along, due to the "weak" body.
and i grew to love the taste, their existence and everything else.
i wanna study engineering.
diploma too,
since i still love things to be simple.
i only wanna know why things work this way and how they work.
and hopefull the method of fixing too!
i wanna study food and nutriton.
i want to know the vitamins and minerals and what not all in my mind!
i want them to be part of my life.
but, i only wanna learn, not apply.
:X
i want to study languages.
everything from malay to arabic to hakka.
i just want to study.
ha!
i enjoy the process of studying,
just studying.
i dont want to worry abt results,
i dont want to think of competition.
i dont want to apply them,
i dont want to make use of them.
i only wanna learn things at my own pace, own space for my own interest.
cann i?
i know i need a good enough man to support my living, and my studies.
"P
spoke at : 11:33 p.m.
i dont understand why my restaurant city just refuses to load.
be it having the min speed of broadband,
or the maximum,
it just refuses to load.
be it some lao ya laptop or some normal desktop....
it just refuses to load.
its soooooo frustrating.
i just need a break from my studies mar,
is that so hard to fulfil.
damn network.
spoke at : 9:32 p.m.
my bf dont let me watch tv!!!
spoke at : 11:34 p.m.
tingx-