yay yay!
there's still tickets back home for new year despite the last minute-ness!
though the damaged to the pockets are relatively big,
but it beats staying in a 4-cornered room by myself during this festive period.
HURRAY.
i cant wait to get the ticket!
gran SHOULD be excited too.
bleah!
on the last day of 2008,
then i came to realised,
i screwed up the whole of my life in this particular yr.
i lived as though im in the world of my own,
apart from the reality.
i broke free from the family,
though i dont know whether deep down,
if i really did.
made some seem to be hasty decision,
and ruin some relationship.
i dunno what i did that was right eventually.
since, i failed as a daughter and a friend.
im still as lost as i was in 2007.
in chinese, also known as "bai huo" le.
had a philosophy lesson towards the last wk of 2008,
and realised the goals that i used to dream of,
doesnt seem realistic or practical at all.
all in all,
nth has been achieved.
but losses seem more.
sigh.
i dunno to anticipate for a better 2009
or to fear for a worse 2009.
since,
there will only be two outcomes.
unless,
i wont be ard to experience the whole of 2009.
p/s.
this post does sound nonsensical as it was written at 0224, 1/1/09, thursday midnight.
and on top of that, there is the bad mood to blame and a tiring body.
tingx- 
spoke at : 1:05 p.m.