BDAY CELEBRATIONS AND GATHERINGS



17/12/08 - with the usual girlfriends @ brewerks



18/12/08 - with MS LEONG and FYP group @ tao restaurant - with the lovely cake prepared by sijia& yingxuan from bakerzin!




19/12/08 - with the colleagues @ ganhuplee - thai express w/ the wonderful sweet tapioca!



20/12/08 - sjab peeps@ jack's place followed by movie with sp colleagues.




21/12/08 - tangyuan @ his house, shu an's house AND meikui aunty house - still as yummy &colourful as ever! and the bday logcake of jiahui's!





22/12/08 day - ganhuplee colleagues celebrated in advance cuz shu an gg to be on leave from 23rd!
treated me ah seng kitchen for lunch - yummy curry fishhead! and surprised me with a cake!





22/12/08 night - with bro, min, hui, him @ bakerzin northpoint! ;P
bro got us a chip& dale each!
hui gotta chip and me the dale!


then headed to 2am:dessertbar @ holland V. amazingly wonderful!
the couch is cosy, the drinks are nice.




23/12/08 - left the auspicious day for the guy.
got my long awaited pizza and drumlets.
got several gifts despite the financial difficulty.
and he bore me a big belly son!

thanks for the thoughtfulness. ;)


26/12/08 - met up with CHAT HONG MING and sijia @giraffe
yummy kahlua! omg, with loves! couch is cosy tooooo! :P
had a long chat towards the night, and yes, enjoyable indeed.


celebrations ended.
time to get back to reality.
one yr older.
officially stepped into the 20s.
time to grow up slightly!
:P

我。。。

是个犯贱的女人！！！

尽在不言中。

the current emotions are mixed.
i dont even know how to express them out.
i dont know who to tell.
i dont know what to do.
i feel lost.
:(

its like...
to know or realise of sth that you didnt want to believe.

i want/need/request for someone to tell me that im reading too much into it and all these isnt true.
i want to believe or to choose to be ignorant.
i want to know and to learn to trust again.
but,
at this point of time,
im lost for words.

sigh.

it has been a great day out, shopping with jh.
it has been a great day out, eating with min/jh/di.
it has been a great day out, movieing with di/jh.

maybe,
i should just retained the happy memories today,
and dump the upsetness aside!
if not,
jh/di/min's effort will be ruined!
ahha!

p/s: thanks papa to the rescue although you didnt help much! haha.
although you wont see it, but no, up to this point, im not regretting yet.
so dont make me! ;)

went dinner with ohsijia after work.
and that sweet lady brought two hard boiled eggs along!!
cuz,
its my lunar birthday!!!!
HEEEE :D
and she reminded me to eat mian xian - sth i've not done for quite long!!
omg,
such a love aint she??

then went off to holland V with jiahui!
my virgin trip there!
wanted to go 2am:dessert bar.
full house.
moved on to wala wala.
full house.

whats going on man!!!!
its friday we know,
but why FULL!!! :(
so we went.
NYDC.
yes, travelled there to have NYDC! ROAR!
but luckily the drinks are acceptable.

chatted hours at the corner,
recalling childhood stuff,
reflecting self in recent yrs,
reciting on exciting events,
predicting future.
and,
it came to me...

are you the one?
you felt like a normal friend some times, though you cann provide certain things they cant.
you're able to fork time out specially for me, but most of my friends cann do so too!
we enjoy each other's companion.. but do we really need one another?
you're always there whenever i needed you the most (at least till this far), but my friends are there whenever i needed them as well!
cann you, really enjoy life and appreciate it in future together with me?

it has never came to my mind that one day, you'll be living tgt with me.. not even cohabiting. although the thought of you mentioning it excites me a moment, but it went down in less than another moment.

i dont share my joys and fears with you. it feels as though it was another part of me that i wouldn't need to share with you. the random thoughts that i shared were merely what friends would do to one another, aint they?

it feels as though, you're just another closer friend. and, i know you might feel terrible if you knew it. but, im not even sure if i should tell you about it. wow, how cool is that.

i feel lost.
lost of the things i should do.

do i really need you,
or am i actually taking up your time?
or,
in actual fact,
im just afraid of the commitment i need to put in after everything you did?

too much thoughts at a go.
and they are all so random.
i dont know,
how i should pen it down,
or continue.

but, this just feels depressing, although it was a wonderful night out.

it came to my sudden realization that i was actually being brought up to enjoy life.


i've been pampered with good food,
good accommodation and life!

having to give public transportation a miss since primary school,
being able to restaurant-hop every other wkend.
- think equinnox - i think i've been there at least twice.
- think - my bro wouldnt step into a non-air conditioned eating place until a certain age.
- think - we cann travel half of s'pore to eat what we feel like eating.

even plain rice was one of the top few brands back then!
the fussiness me and my bro had was like - we refused to eat any rice from granny's house cuz.. her rice is of a lower quality.
home cooked dishes were even calculated to be more expensive than takeaways!!

imagine staying in a local hotel... more than enough!
imagine bday celebrations at all sort of hotels/restaurants.
imagine york hotel buffets twice every yr!

the tours we had.
taking planes since 2!
umpteen getaway trips since young.

im... so trained to enjoy life!
i want to continue to pamper myself!
the only difference will be,
now, i cann only depend on myself - to give me the kind of life i yearn for.

i want to continue my high standards of living,
so i must work hard.

luanting,
jiayou!!
for a better future,
you must continue to strive harder!!!!

so, i cann at least fulfil my wishlist within next yr!!!!
:P