i hate my indecisive,
and un-firmness.
i cannot make
FIRM decision and not turn back.
WHY!
i dont like it when you made me feel like im just nth.
i dont like it when you refuses to tell me whats wrong.
i dont like it when you act like you dont care.
and
i cant stand myself being like this!
grrr.
im UPSET UPSET UPSET.
and you have to spoil my date! :(
nuff of that.
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went back for OT today,
merely because i was crazy.
i think i'd go crazy at home thus the decision.
and the whole office belongs to 5 of us!!
i really wonder...
what'd life be when boyfriend& his lover leaves next sat!!!
althou wz has converted to perm,
& there's viv
& gek eng (who has decided not to change dept due to ME [partially!!! :P] )
& jiejie
& mr zhang
but,
it'd be different.
geee.
i hope i do get use to it;
its definitely more upsetting than when the ntu attachees are leaving.
T.T
and viv changing seats to some faraway land makes me SADDER!!!
(althou i get to go round that corner more often! - as in SLACK :P)
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after OT,
went to dempsey hill with jiahui.
(oh yar, this pretttty lady waited for me at the office for 4hrs! :P)
OMG.
lemon tart IS nice.
wedges is yummy
AND
i love cappucino!!
:D
i wanted to take some nice photo of the tiramisu (which i happened not to like it very much...)
but my camera die on me..
just like that.
T.T
luckily ms kee is ard with her 5 MP cam phoneeeee.
:DDD
yummy food.
siewboonie, jojo, mdm oh, ms xu &pei...
shall visit there some day alright!
^.^
ok,
nuff for today.
it has been A MONTH since i got my sundays nap,
and i think i shld sleeep!
:)
nights peeeeeeps!
spoke at : 10:14 p.m.
life.
has been crazily crazy.
with all the late night WORK - really working ok.
and all the late night FUN - this is NECESSITY (giggles**)
ppl in the office are FAR TOO "ON".
with all the meeting sessions with ot clique,
ntu cliques and random cliques.
but,
life would have been real dull without them.
and sad too.
job has turned from bad to horribly bad.
job scope maintains,
but my mistakes level has increased tremendously.
whats with forgetting the BLOCKS and not VERIFYING.
(yes ching, 4mths and
still not verifying -.=!)
I FAILED THE QA,
and i think i will have a write-in complaint SOON.
rwar.
might be too tired from overworking..
might be i just dunn have the heart.
like everyone in the office who sees me mentioned,
its time to take a short break - be it one or two days.
maybe, i really shld!
anyway,
enough of emos.
met up with jojo & boonie randomly.
the former just msged me in the afternoon..
commanding me to meet her up.
she dinn even check
if im free lor..
best buds, eh!
went for a meal.
AND fireworks!
wheeeeee.
we thought we'd have missed it,
but aha!
still in time for the last 15mins!!
^.^
pretty pretty stars flying down.
colourful sparklers flying everywhere.
<3 !!
pretty emo when its time to say goodbye.
its hard to think,
when will be the next meetup.
the offs might not crash so soon.
and weekends aint free just like that.
T.T
and,
THE LADY WHO IS IN NTU HALL 4 NOW.
she practically got her own life,
forgotten about these non-uni students!!
dunn even bother to reply sms!
tsk tsk..
but, we have to have our own personal space thou,
comparing to others who hardly had the chance to meet once a yr..
we might be lucky enough already.
:)
but still that line,
pls dunn let the next meetup to be in nov.
its kinda.
saddening, you know!
we need each other to spice up each other's life.
:P
spoke at : 12:13 a.m.
i knew what answer i was waiting for.
i wasnt exactly in a dilemma.
was rather waiting for another answer,
to ask me not to go.
but the person failed me,
even thou i asked it straight in the face.
it was like..
that kinda feeling,
which i had years before..
有种把自己送上门的感觉。
maybe,
you aint the one who can give me what i need after all.
maybe,
you just cant do it, although the way you do things showed me that you wanted to care.
but,
i needed more.
and you couldnt afford.
spoke at : 8:57 p.m.
下个月的今天，
应该会不一样。
下个月的今天，
应该不回在这。
下个月的今天，
不知会是怎样。
不应该这样难过，
因为已经有了心理准备。
只是，
你连开口说也免了。
那。。。
就这样吧。
该去哪好呢?
its time to think abt it.
spoke at : 2:12 p.m.
tingx-