如果说你要走
我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚
一句话就够

如果说你要走
我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛
多么的难过
别越爱越难过

越爱越难过 - 吴克群

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i want more kbox please.
even if it means i have to croak after that.
which means to say,
i get to choose whether i get a MC on the next working day.
HOHO.

you said,
you'd like to clarify things.
you said,
you'd like to understand.
you said,
you'd like to verify.
you said.

but,
will it come true?
will it happen?
will disappointment sets in after?
will upsetness follows?

i dunno.
but i anticipate for the result.

if what jiemei says is true,
then i'd be v disappointed.
:(

lucky does need alot more tlc.
alot more attention.
alot more affection.
but,
it does matters where it comes from afterall.

why there will always be a sudden change in things,
especially when things are at its best,
a 180deg change will occur to offset the current situation.

upset about the current situation.
upset about the attitude.
upset about the misleading.

i dunn feel like continuing like this.
i believe there will be no end to it.
i believe,
for once,
i need to make this brave move to clarify everything.

arghs.
i did told myself i didnt wanna get involved in the beginning.
why did i still jump into it!
:(

at least.
today has been the best day of june.
:)

at least.
i had proven that i wasnt that kuku afterall.
:))

at least.
i have proved that i didnt think too much in the past.
:)))

im glad i walked this far.
im glad for your presence.
im glad i managed to communicate with you today.

thanks for being there for the past ten years.
greatly appreciated.
i'll feel safe tonight.

ilu, g.

thanks sister,
for being the middleman.
i need the msg,
to assure myself.
and sorry if we had been naggy tonight!

you know how grateful i was, towards your help today.

p/s. i got a feeling i will have sore throat tml again.
-.=!
i just cant resist talking.
grrr!!!

june is really not the mth.
neither was may.
but nvm, it was over.

but june!!!!!!
GRRR.
everything was wrong!
the pay
the job
the ppl
the XXX
the GRRR

theres so many things i wanna scream out.
yet nth i could reveal here.
-.=!
this place is starting to be slightly useless.
and defeating its actual/initial purpose.
:(

IM MAD.
boiling mad.
and frustrated.
and pissed.
and worried.
and upset.
and disappointed!

ROAR!
but,
what can i do.
:(

july,
pls be a better mth.
for me,
and those who are affected.

was happily browsing through my friendster and saw this new horoscope.
went in and this is what i get:

There is a new person in your life who intrigues you, but they have not revealed enough about themselves for you to get an accurate picture of who they truly are. You need to know more before you move forward with this relationship, no matter what stage it's at right now. Take time to look at them objectively -- do not let your affections blind you to truth. Unless you do this, you won't have all the information you need to make the right choices, no matter how confident you feel.

sounds...
so weird.
HAHA!
shin,
do you have the same feel???

damn cool!!!!!
i went to search my name in google...
and i found sooo many things!
:X

anyway!!
loads of updates!!!

sunday
bday kbox with hong kong peeps.
celeb sijia's bday and marcus's enlistment.
ok, celebrating the latter sounds abit funny!
:X
but we will sure missed his funny acts& noisy voice!
hahaha!!

monday
second celeb with mdm ohsijia again with the girls.
kuku game which made us went like crazy and the bday girl end up pranking us!!!

i had too much of dried longans + v nice de dark mocha frap from starbucks (gasps* - i actually supported& advertised for it) + seafood combo + fish and chips + late night sleeps + LACK OF WATER.

end up having sore throat at night.
very very good.

tuesday
went to see doc!
sore throat aint getting any better.
BUT.
the doc REFUSES to accept that im having sore throat.
gave me a horrible look as thou i wanted to cheat her MC like that.
she threw me one -- your cough not v serious right --
& a -- what other illness you have --

wahliew.
regardless of what,
i reported at your dumb dumb clinic at 8.11am (when you guys open at 8am) and waited for 1.5hrs before you guys served me lor.
cant you at least provide a better service!!!
stupid horrible frog.
thought of getting MC cancelled immd.
somemore i wearing OFFICE WEAR there.
obviously i went to see the doc WITHOUT the intention to get MC.
(the thought came in only after alvin & jianrong msged me - get MC lar!! hahahaha)

went work after that.
and ate a wonderful lunch at XXX.
and i lost my voice in less than 2 hrs!
wheets.
i really wanted to go back to the same doc and req MC!
hahahaha!
but,
abrupt meetup with liza& yoshi!!
saw yoshi at somerset mrt.
chatted abit while waiting tgt with laogong for dear liza to reach.
they were supposed to be meeting for sex and the city!!
but postponed their date to eat dinner with me!!!
HOHOHOHO.

so. we went for dinner.
a mini-abrupt lab grp gathering.
DAMN COOL.
how many of you on earth will have this kinda happening incident!!!!!
hahaha.
we promised to date the whole grp out on next tues.
so the peeps below if you guys are reading this, you know what you should do next!!
SHERYL, YINGXUAN, OHSIJIA!

sex and the city next tues after work!!!!
hahahaha!!
leave yourself free ar! :)

wednesday
voice pronounced dead.
i cant even croak.
but mr alvin got an MC instead!!
super MC king -tsk tsk.

thrown to backroom after answering 5 calls in the first hour.
did admin work!!!
i must admit..
a change in envt sometimes make working more fun!!
esp if the calls are super sucky on that day!

but,
cuz everyone couldnt get me today....
and my custs decided to all pak up and bully me today by calling me back....
i have to.
do a lot of follow ups for the next two days!
ROAR!
i earned a total of 10 follow ups thou i dinn answer much calls!!!
and i settled 2 on the spot today!!!
oh oh!!
and one of it...
was done thru my connections as im working in backroom!
:X

time flies when you are doing interesting stuff.
and not answering calls..
cann be a very fun thing too!!
hahahahah!!!
i love today.
so..
i decided not to get a MC for tml althou i went back to the kuku clinic to get my timesheet today!
hahahahahaha!!!
i shall..
go voice-less to work tml too!
MUAHA!
:P

EMO EMO MORE EMO.
=(

why i feel like im being used for the simplicity of mindset,
easy going attitude,
easy to please character.

and it has to be from the one closest to you.

" really very disappointed "
-as quoted from one of the customer.

but what else can i do.
arh.
the most upset thing is that:
i have to repeat my mistakes once again.
不是说了好牛不吃回头草。
ahh!
thats why.
i must have been the bad cow previous life.

lets not think abt it now.
i want a good rest.

i wanna make going KL during national day period COME TRUE!
hohohohohohohohohoho.

TAN CHEN PANG!
meet me there~!!
ahha!
:)