meet ups only make me emotional after that.
GRR.
i hate the way my brain functions.
or is it the heart?
LOL.

那两年的回忆里，
有喜怒哀乐。
有爱有怨。
有情有义。
有欢喜，
有悲伤。
有笑声，
挣扎，
和泪水。

但，
那却是我最怀恋的时光。
回忆里，
最丰富的，
就是这两年了。

故事要说三天三夜也说不完。
这。。。
就是我们。

mini FM4 gathering today.
meet up with kaisheng& zhenwei successful!
gasps*
i actually met up with kaisheng.
LOL.
多不可思议。
met up for late lunch without sijia first.
denn,
wanted to bowl at somewhere NEAR.
so went yishun safra.
bowling alleys all booked.
:(
waited for 1 hour,
while playing darts with them.
still no alleys available!!!

so,
went to OCC instead, after meeting sijia.
alleys booked again.
-.=!!

cuz dearest zhenwei have to leave early for his individual proj,
thus,
we played pooool.
and,
ks is a pool pro!
LOL.
his team always win no matter how bad the starting may seems.

acc. zw down to town in my very japalang attire,
due to xun zhong yao qiu.
I MAJIAM GO MARKET ATTIRE CANN.
:(

never mind that.
went citylink& suntec walk ard while waiting for zw,
denn ate at san zhong liang jian.
yar, in my japalang attire.

zw still say what,
wann go some posh restaurant.
thanks ar.
:X

took some photos at esplanade for his proj before heading back.

we agreed to meet up on sat to run!
LOL!
before having some nice breakfast at chong pang.
looking forward to it!
lala.

come to think abt it,
it has been long since a decent sec sch gathering has been organised.
the class,
FM4 (muaha! we succeed! 3/4 of us lehh!),
god bros and sis,
and the diff cliques.
so now,
we decided to kao zi ji!
LOL.

more lunch or dinner dates ard west area ar, NP students!
you inclusive, ks.
(thou i dunn think you will get to read this! LOL.)
now we remember!
MUAHA.

im sad.
upset.
unhappy.

i dunnnnno LAR.

我，
超级不爽。
一肚子的不爽，
让我没力气继续写下去。

明天若开心，
再回来吧。

我。。。
还是等不到。

让人失望好像是我的专长。

但，
我也无能为力。

吵得好累。
自己累无所谓，
但家里上上下下都因为我们两而累, 真的有点让人吃不消。

无法理解她的想法，
她的用意，
看到的只有她的故意。

简单的晚餐，
仿佛是种奢侈。
安宁的夜晚，
是种贪念。

未来会是怎样，
我无法想象。
但，
现在我唯一能做的，
是让爸爸安宁的过日子。
让弟弟能偶尔有些呼吸的空间。

我也很累。
但, 谁了解 ?

i wanna spend my birthday outside next year.
LOL

i think i cann start summarising my birthday celebrations now!
hahahas.

last year's theme was pink.
this year is soft toy/ plushies.

i've got one medium size elmo!
& an add on collection of pig family!
& a not so mini voice recorder capricorn bear,
& also a gigantic and scary cookie monster.

elmo by sijia& xuanxuan
pig by sijia
the last two by ERR EEE WOOO ARR.
(you know i know we know)

started celebrating from 17th dec.
WOW.
by the 6 lovely girls of cuz!
(siewboon's sis inclusive)
best celebration of all.
most touching.
best planned& all.

i love the cute gf band alot.
LOL

denn met up with jiahui& jiamin on 21st to go k.
very very very expensive arh.
denn went over their place for dinner with bro,
made some tangyuan (yum yum!)
and off to my place to sleepover.

spent few hours having girls talk,
all the way till 4+ gg 5am.
woke up to mess up our kitchen near noon.

cstead, dstead, cedric, xx and a mysterious guest came along to give me a pleasant bday surprise.
with some tangyuan& red eggs by shin.
a bigggg card, which i have yet to find a place to store, by dstead..
sponsored taxi ride by cedric to transport him& cstead over.
yummy coffee cake by xx& dstead.

surprised by their appearance.
they still pakup with jiahui& jiamin in the preparation!!

before that, they all (shin, cedric) called to say they coming over to do report.
totally spoil my sleepover mood sia!
LOL

played awhile before meeting shu to shop ard for her christmas gift.
im superbly broke to even think of christmas gift cannnnn!
:(

went back to jiahui& jiamin's house to cut cake,
eat more tangyuans (heavenly!!),
and a few game of cluedo (which i lost all!)
before rushing home to..
to..
FINISH MY STUPID REPORT..

kitty was rushing me so that he cann hand in by 24th!
true enough la,
if not school reopen then cann submit le!
:X

thank god for rushing thou,
im able to spend my bday WORRY-FREE since i finished it when the clock strikes 1am, 23 dec.
:)
pathetic it may sounds,
doing report during the 1st hour of my bday.

23rd,
dad mum came back.
& in the afternoon,
yy & gladys called to say they coming down to swim.
they did swim eventually,
but another surprised came along.

mr& mrs frog pop out of nowhere with a bday cake& a pig.
utterly touched.
thou i dinn tear.
:)

pei called to give me a special appearance to pass me my present after that.
before rushing out for the third appointment of the day.

i love the fact i have great friends like you guys around.
i love the fact you are so yong xin in the planning!
:D

im happy.
very happy.
it seems as though it is my 18 birthday still!
LOL

okok..
im 19 now!
NINETEEEEN!

:))

talking about relationship...

what kind of actions or attitudes portrayed will be disgusted by males most?
LOL

looking at how sweet the couples are around me,
sometimes,
i really feel like getting into a relationship soon.

yet,
whenever something happens in one or more of the couples,
i will get held back altogether.

its so funny when it gets so confused all inside.
yes.
there aint any suitable candidates now.
budd without the willinglyness to get into a relationship,
how do i go about looking out for the right one?
LOL

i fear
yet anticipate it at the same time.

how would he be like?
how would i be treated?
what would the feeling be like?
will there still be strong heartbeats, nervousness or even trembling?
will there still be those fun yet sweet moments?

what would we turn out like?
will we be able to communicate well?
will we have things to share?


aiyo.
when will the right one appear,
at the right time????
hahahhahaha!

i missed being in a relationship,
yet fear being in one at the same time.

im weird.
:X

loads of photos!!

taken on fyp presentation.

shin!
got your eyecandy!
we took with him!!
HAHAHA.
enjoy.
:)

i love the girls.
:)

love the pleasant surprise.
:)

love the party.
:)

love their 'yong xin' & everything else.

back for updates when i have the photos!!

i found nice things again from ppl's blog again~!!

Look up your Birthday and see what kind of PEST you are!

January 01 - 09 : Ass
January 10 - 24 : Slug
January 25 - 31 : Cockroach

February 01 - 05 : Parasite
February 06 - 14 : Bullfrog
February 15 - 21 : Skunk
February 22 - 28 : Snake

March 01 - 12 : Ape
March 13 - 15 : Cockroach
March 16 - 23 : Slug
March 24 - 31 : Parasite

April 01 - 03 : Ass
April 04 - 14 : Snake
April 15 - 26 : Slug
April 27 - 30 : Skunk

May 01 - 13 : Slug
May 14 - 21 : Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 : Cockroach

June 01 - 03 : Slug
June 04 - 14 : Skunk
June 15 - 20 : Ass
June 21 - 24 : Ape
June 25 - 30 : Parasite

July 01 - 09 : Slug
July 10 - 15 : Ass
July 16 - 26 : Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 : Parasite

August 01 - 15 : Ape
August 16 - 25 : Slug
August 26 - 31 : Skunk

September 01 - 14 : Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 : Parasite
September 28 - 30 : Ass

October 01 - 15 : Ape
October 16 - 27 : Skunk
October 28 - 31 : Snake

November 01 - 16 : Cockroach
November 17 - 30 : Parasite

December 01 - 16 : Ass
December 17 - 25 : Ape
December 26 - 31 : Bullfrog

If you are an Ass: A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Slug: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.

If you are a Parasite: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Skunk: You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what the best trait of you guys remains.

If you are a Bullfrog: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware; it is easy for you to fall in love.

If you are a Snake: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape: Very impatient and hyper! You want things to be done as quickly as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique..You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!

haha!
i like the hyper part for my description!
:X

award me with the 'pig of the year'.

i practically nua-ed from fri evening till sat night!
HOHOHO!
it has been real long before i really nua-ed like this!!!

slept from 4plus in the evening on fri till 10 plus in the night althou it was meant to be a afternoon SHORT nap.
:X
i woke up to sijia's call.
HAHA!!
denn watch awhile of my witch yoo hee,
and dozed off again.
-.=

i dunno was it the late night sleep on the night before that caused me to be so nua,
or that,
fyp has really made me sooo tired and restless.

woke up 10plus in the morning.
& then,
i realised,
i was super super super hungry.
my last meal was like in 12 noon on fri!!!!!
i did not eat anything for almost 24 hours!!
hahahahs!

ate sth light,
& back to my bed to watch show again!!!
& slept a while, woke up to eat sth light,
& off to bed again..
continued the routine all the way,
till 9 plus.

arhh!
i rmb!!
the last time i nua-ed like this was when....
may may posted an entry about wasting life away!!!
which is,
last hols!
:X

met up with QING MING korkor, andy, frog& jia for awhile for some dessert session,
but the stall was closed when we went to order.
-.=
it was still open when we arrived lor.

took a ride back home with frog's pickup anddd.
I SAT AT THE BACK!
WOHOO.
damn high cann!
& QM and andy were with me!

muahahahha!
thats not the point.
the point is....
QM kor kor kept talking to me!
OMGOMGOMG!
damn high!!!

i was commenting to sijia in the afternoon,
that we are not that high over QM le,
cuz we get tired of stuff easily.
but ystd made me so high over him again.
ok, im retarded!!

but i like it the best when sijia is jealous!
wohoooo!
the ride is nice!
with nice wind!
& eyecandy talking to me!!

ok.
you guessed correctly.
i lost my sleep ystd cuz of that.
:D
& sijia nearly squashed me alive for making her stay up with me!
lalala!

WHEE~

fyp finally came to an end.
after soooo long!
:)

presentation was today,
yet there were so much of preparation work to be done weeks before.
(ok, we only started two weeks ago)

monday was used wisely by rehearsing the ppt repeatedly,
with loads of things to edit like always,
then, spent a full day at my house on tues to try out the marinating& stuff.
finally, wed skipped over to yx's to deco& do the actual marinating& final deco.

horribly horrible.
i think im tooooo tired from all these fyp thingy,
with all the lack of sleep,
and self imposed stress.
thou some days i do deserve some beatings from slacking too much on my 'self-declared off days'.
i finally broke apart during prac,
like 3 hours before the actual ppt.

im sorry if i scared you guys!
deeply sorry about that.
:X

eeeyer,
i just couldnt control the stress level well larrrr.
one more excuse: my big aunt came!
LOL

i think i made sijia& yingxuan felt very bad too.
& ms leong was super worried.
aiya.
its not because of you girls lar!
its just myself.
just that i couldnt achieve the kinda expectations i set for myself.
so dunn worry!!

was damn worried that i couldnt memorise the new scripts well enough (they 'came in' only on WED AFTERNOON)
like less than 24 hours for me to fully memorise cann!
& it was sorta a verbal script!
&& it was sooo complicating!
&&& it was VERY messy.
totally out of our scope of knowledge!

was damn scared i will make some silly mistakes or blunders somewhere right before the ppt.
or making some stupid mistakes and notice it too late or sth!
it was always me who made those mistakes throughout the reports& preparation of ppt.
also, it was always me who then spotted these mistakes and made you guys flutter.
:S

hais.
maybe thats why,
i m not made for doing big things,
participate in big events etc.
it has always been a problem,
and no matter how well i seem to try to be alert& careful,
it will still occur.
:(

really thankful to you two,
for being patient with me,
for heping me along to solve these problems made from my carelessness,
for being there all along.
for supporting me throughout.
for boosting the confidence in me.

you might not realise that,
but it was your nods throughout the ppt that supported me along.
it was these nods,
that allowed me to present it as smoothly as possible,
that allowed me to continue with no fear.

thank you 3/4 decade (and still counting) friend.
dunn worry,
it really wasnt due to the count on me song.
but still,
please no next time.
LOL!

with that,
i shall continue to enjoy the last bit of freedom,
before the end of my poly life.

i will miss fyp chionging days.
in the kitchen days with laksa team.
in the stayout late days.
& every other things.
& of course,
the days where we worked as one,
to complete the assigned tasks.

i love you guys!
& not forgettttting those who lend us a helping hand,
be it the encouragement,
or the hands on part.
you guys know who you are!
:)

nights ppl,
time for my long awaited - witch yoo hee!
TEE HEE HEE

感动 vs 感激
应该是感激多于感动。

很悲哀。
但没办法。
:X

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almost met up with qm korkor this evening.
ALMOST

yet,
就差那一点点。

as the saying goes:
so near yet so far.

and we passed by his schoooool.
and it has to be ard the time he releases school.
:(

damn high in the morning for nth.
so sad.

i think WE scared him.
thou in actual fact,
I scared him more.
:(

she used my name to ask him out okays!
hais!!!
hope he dunn read too much into it!!

相同的简讯，
但来自不一样的人，
会有不一样的感觉。

it could be of the exact same msg, or of a similar meaning.
budd the feeling is diff.
the anticipating process is diff.
the end product thus,
will be diff too.

A: so what are you doing now?
B: huh. rotting./ nth much./ etc.

X: so what are you doing now?
B: :) ... ... ... what about you? having funn ... ...?

--------
A: dunn think too much about it, i'll be there for you.
B: k, thanks. will be fine thou.

X: dunn think too much about it, i'll be there for you.
B: many thanks! really needed that. ... ... ...

--------
A: eaten already?
B: yea.

X: eaten already?
B: yepp! mum cooked ... ... my fav. dish! nice nice ... ...


当这一切成为一种负担，
当这一切成为一种烦恼。

i think i seriously have a problem with myself.
HAHA.
or maybe,
im just trying challenge the patience i received.
like what i do all the time.

i do hope i wunn regret after i lost it.
:)

why would someone wanna two-time?

its gonna be soo taxing.
mentally& physically!

was discussing with jia about it!
and we derived sth from it!
we will have to be super super alert!
super super careful!
and,
i think if i two time,
i will get caught within a month.
HAHA!

im sucha careless person!!
and super not alert!
especially when i m in a just wake up mode!
LOL.

imagine texting the 2 guys at the same time.
brain have to work super well!
2 diff contents, alternating leh!
how to concentrate?
have to be v v clear headed!

denn when on dates,
have to pray hard wunn meet anyone you know!
everytime go ulu ulu de park?
or with A, go high class area.
with B, go super low class area?!
denn will be meeting two different era de ppl!
so wunn get caught so easily.
HAHA.

denn special occasions even worse!!!
how to split yourself into 2?!
one morning session,
one afternoon/night?!
very xiong lehhhh.

anyway,
its gonna be hard to two time for me.
i sure 'chuang pang' very easily!
:X
and,
got so many candidates for me to two time meh!
HAHAHA!
:S

---------
dear fairy godmother,
i miss the taste of happy stick.