I M SO CONFUSED NOW!!!!!!
:(

should i

watch coffee prince
or tree of heaven
or lovers
or smile again
FIRST?????

all four videos are loading NOW!!!
i cann watch either one NOW!!!

budd budd
which one first???
ALL SO NICE!
hais.

got show watch i fan,
no show watch i also fan.
im sooooo irritating!
LOL

I THINK I REALLY SAW HE JUN XIANG IN CORNER WITH LOVE!
I THINK I REALLY DID LAR!
andddd.
i think i heard luo zhi xiang calling someone 'bao dao ah xin'!
LOL

okok.
enough of crap.
budd i still think i really did face the above situations.
:x

i finish it FINALLY.
the videos are all posted about half a yr ago cannnnn!
lols!

andd.
siewboonie is right.
the plot is nice& sweet.
budd.
why why love is better than corner with love.
becuz
.
.
we both feel that
.
.
he jun xiang is more shuai denn luo zhi xiang.
LOL
okok.
thats siewboonie& mine opinion.
:x
no offence!

anddd.
it is indeed touching larr.
the way they fought for their love.
sweetness!!

super sad when they were forced to leave one another time& again.
super sad when they lied so hard just to minimise each other's damage!

now,
time for emo shows!!!!
cuz this two shows tempted me so much!
made my eyes wet,
budd not that sad enough to cry out loud like in dby!!
oooops/.

i still wonder how i cried for the last two episodes for dby when i first watch it,
andd still manage to cry for the second last episode when i rewatch it again.
i m sooo emo!
lols!

to be able to savour on orh jian,
while watching qin lang cook his famous orh jian is such a luxury!!!

and,
to be able to sip coffee at coffeebean w/o having any notes to obstruct my view is wonderful!!

to be able to laze on the bed till late morning,
and not having to worry about anything is lovely.

im enjoying my holidays so much,
i wished i never have to study.
budd..
this is getting bored..

IT RAINS ALMOST ALL THE TIME.
how to swim?!
i cant possibly stuck myself in the sauna room 24/7 right?!
or watch videos 24/7~

I WANT TO WORK!
I WANT TO SHOP!
I NEED MONEY!
AND FUN!!!

LOL!
tell me wednesday, thursday& friday will be funn!!
;)

如果以后你难过，
想哭只要抬头看看天空
就会知道我们都陪在你身边
你一点也不孤单

以后你看见的每一颗星星
都代表霍达说我爱你
吹过你耳边的微风
就像霍达在说我想你
照在你身上的温暖阳光
那是因为我张开双手在拥抱你
如果下雨了
那就是说霍达没有嘉蒂在身边真的好寂寞

nice yea?

apparently,
i wunn be so hardworking to type it out.
althou i wanted to do so badly.
LOL

kop from sheryl's fren de blog!
she damn big fan sia!
almost quoted all those touching lines!!
(thou she kop from some other frens of hers too sometimes!)
LOL!

ending of why why love is rather disappointing!

i'd rather be in the shoes of tong jia di,
rather than being known of what if gg on!
GRRR.

AND.
does he have to sob so hard?!
lols!
i'm weak too!
BAHH..

budd dby is still better!
MOHOHO.

andd the directors love to let he jun xiang go motherless.
LOL.

i like to get pulled away while sitting in a daze.
i like the feeling of having a ride on the bike,
on the empty highways.
i like the feeling of being hurt badly,
andd denn get picked up again.

i am at episode 13 ALREADY.
omg.
SO FAST!!
its gonna finish soon.
=((
had a short meet up with jolin on thursday to watch secret.
saw shuyan& jayne too.
been long since we two met.
yes.
last met up was..
sijia's birthday.
sometimes, we couldnt stand ourselves either!
LOL.
were nearly late for the show.
and we got a unknown discount.
LOL.
anddd.
best of all,
secret is..
NICE.
:D

i still dunn like her!
not that i didnt give her chance!

and,
her current hairstyle makes it worst!
LOL!

and why she dinn die in the accident.
!^%*$&(#$!
spoiler.
forget about her.

he jun xiang is damn sweet!
LOL
WHEE
they are finally together!
HAHAHAHA.
SWEET <3

不是满分，
就是零。
人只有一颗心，
也只能爱一个人。

i love sweet stuff.
yum yum.
;)

sheryl is such a spoiler.
bleah.

L.O.V.E.

ta shi shuai de lor.
手帕这样娘的东西，
我没有。
但，我的手可以借你！
^.^

andd.
that yang yan shu is still as EEEKS.
ACT.
FAKE.
i wonder if her face is fake too!
bleah!

I HATE YAN SHU!.
i dunn like super act innocent girls!!
LIKE YAN SHU!
no like no like!
spoiler!!
humphs!

and,
huo da is so cute when he is playing the remote control car!!!!!
i missed mine!
LOL!

WATCH WHY WHY LOVE!
no question ask!
just watch.

andd,
i think i will blog like at least another 65676547 times abt my he jun xiang.
cuz,
sheryl chong is not online to lemee bug!
MOHOHO.
but,
its true.
watching it online.
!$#^@&*&^
imeem de screen. omg
veoh de screen big, but once broken,consider sold.
restart again, still hang. sian.
YOUTUBE.
i have to load 9 videos to watch AN episode.
faints.

anw,
he jun xiang is shuai de lors!
omg!

ITS OVER.
finally!!!!

andd.
to celebrate the end of examinations,
we went for k lunch.
it was a wrong wrong wrong choice.
for me& sijia laaa.

obviously we were stuck in the 'paper-cave'.
of the songs yx selected,
we have either not heard of the songs or hear before, never see mv before!
in which,
majority belongs to the not heard of category!
ANDDD.
they are the latest release.
:0

we must have stored ourselves in the thick piles of notes for too long!!!
so me& sijia apparently sat thru.
LOL.
next time,
we aint gg to kbox straight after exams.
to save ourselves from the malus!

irritated, pissed.
i wanna sleep, but i cant.
but, nothing seems to go in.

worried, panic.
but there is nth i cann do abt it.
as time near,
my death statement nears.

tired, sleepy.
eyes are so painful now they cann hardly open.
yet,
im hanging on.
the last hope i have.

i hate yet anticipate the arrival of 9am.
stupid exams.

i wanna blog hopped.
but all the blogs suddenly no updates.
:(

i wanna friendster hopped.
budd,
suddenly not in the mood.

i wanna play game,
budd,
i just couldnt bring myself to click THAT button.

i feel like sleeping,
but,
i feel so insecure sleeping now.

maybe,
it is fated that,
i have to start writing notes today,
in order not to repeat today's incident.

i think i.
m seriously affected by the exam period.
like what sheryl said,
EXAM SUCKS.

sometimes,
there aint any reasons why you simply couldnt accept the person.
andd,
i have this strong rejection feeling growing in me recently.
andd if this goes on,
im so afraid i couldnt even face her one day.
:S

i feel so confused now.
struggling between the auto thoughts& inner dialogues inside me.
they are fighting so strongly,
i feel as thou i m struggling.
struggling between what i see, what i absorb& what i feel in the end.
i hope the devils doesnt get into me eventually.

out of a sudden,
im so glad that it is exam period now,
and soon,
it'll be holidays.
andd denn,
i will have time,
to sit& think properly.
what m i gg to do abt this.

i feel so bad now!
i m a horrible girl.
:(

i seriously think there is a need to:

- cut off the internet cables in my house.
- remove the power cables& battery of my laptop.
- destroy my desktop computer.
- burn away all available vcds/dvds.
- smash my tv.
- chop off my legs.
- most imptly, BURN MY BED.

with that,
perhaps,
hopefully,
i cann finally settle down and study for my exams.
food pro a is still halfway thru,
other modules,
are still hiding in the respective shelves.

for once,
i wish that i cann dream of the qns in the papers.
*sigh.

hurry come 23 aug.
i want to have funn!
k box.
movie session.
dinner.
whatever.

just lemme get out of this study-sleep-eat-study-sleep routine.
im getting tired.
thou, i do enjoy getting my nap.

its frustrating enough when some things doesnt turn out the way you wanted it to be,
andd sometimes,
to make the matter worse
some other problems just kept popping in.

i hate it when my life is being disrupted this way.
i hate it when i have to keep on hurting ppl like that.

im tired.


work is okay.
with two funn colleagues to acc me thru the 'dark' hours.
kairen was rather a disappointment,
cuz i really thought he'd be better than zhiwei.
today's session proved it WRONG.
LOL
me& mei's viewpoints are diff.
=xx

i wunn be so crazy anymore.
period.
work is gonna be put aside first,
thou i really pity ting's hectic working schedule due to lack of manpower!
jiayou mei!
i'll be back.
hopefully no more suntec.
despite wonderful colleagues cum presence of zhiwei.
standing there and act like a recorder till 6pm is NO funn.
sales only starts to crawl in after 6pm, i dunno why!

BUT,
today was SUPER hyper.
i saw ERM
eyecandy no. N
i lost count already,
budd i saw linda& her friend.
ben the typical!!
HE is prettttttty.
andd he just have to walk past me like 4 times in a few hours!

andd saw loads of ppl again,
ppl like ms low yingxiu,
(andd i got slapped by her at least 4 times! LOL!)
and TEACHER PING GUAN!
(he bought Opti Free XPRESSSSSSS! /:<)
pri sch mates like belinda& jieleng,
andd sjab de cheryl.
shuhong etc etc.
i cant rmb!
LOL!

this is more like a mini catch up session!
andd i sweared i stared at ping guan for so long i think he cant stand being in the shop any longer, thou he appeared twice!

omg.
i so love today!
especially being able to seeeee that eyecandy N!
LOLOL.

im crazy.
you needn't remind me that.
;D

blissfulness& happiness can be achieved in such simple ways.
enjoying that bowl of 'shin ramen',
with the company of ah meng,
and the soft embrace by my wonderful sofa,
makes me so xin fu!

HAHA.

i think i love doing things at crazy moments!
for the kick out of it!
MOHOHO.

i finished my dby for the n-th time today!
in just one day!
MOHOHO.
ah meng is still as suave as he used to!
andd i m still as high as the first time i watched it!
still shrieking& yelling at moments!!
laughing to myself at some funny parts!

andd
i m working tml!
full day??

HAHAHA.
;)
i enjoy self torturing.
=xx

i will get why why love!!!!!!!!
after exams!
LOL!

alien languages.

not listening in class is bad enough.
not listening in classes like ngtonghuat's is horrible.
being partially asleep& not listening in classes like ngtonghuat's =
sleepless nights before exams!!!!!!!

thou i had all the tutorials& its solutions
budd they are all so messy.
scratch heads~

i dunn understand a single thingy in my solutions,
thou everything is done relatively neatly.
(thou with evidences of sleepiness here& there)

in conclusion,
they aint as bad as enzyme& fermentation technology.
budd.
they still drive me crazy.

i await 22 aug.
12 more days.
thou i really dunno how m i gg to survive studying fd flvr& packaging notes when biotech& pro a alr left me half dead.
correction.
i haven touch biotech.
so i should put it this way:
pro a alr left me half dead.
so pro a& biotech are gg to make me dead.

yaya.
im blabbering rubbish.
cuz its 237am now,
andd i m still stuck between those Nm1(s), E1(s) & R1(s)

the most torturous period of the semester is here.

fd pro is crazy.
fd biotech is madness.
fd flvr is horrible.
fd packaging is atrocious.

DAMN.
22 aug.
no make it 23 aug.
hurry come ok?

-----------------
我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

twins - 我很想爱他

i cann disappear into the air for one whole damn SATURDAY,
and receive a call at the time they usually calls in when i m not home yet,
and being asked,
wru now?
why never say you gg out etc.

if you know me well,
i usually dunn spend my saturdays out,
andd if i really went out,
i would inform them.

btw,
i dinn really disappear.
i wasted one whole friday explaining everything.
from where will i be to what will i be doing on saturday.
why wasted?
cuz, all the words& breath spent are turned into deaf ears.
all that i think i dinn/forget mention was how long i will be out.

getting tired of all these compromising or accommodating.
(did they ever compromise btw? lets just make it accommodating.)
i tried to let you know what is going on,
budd you are not even bothered.
no la,
maybe you are not concern at all you see.
like HELLO.
you should be the one taking the initiative first k.
you should be the one leading the way.

and btw,
i learnt how to be initiative back in sec sch,
in my sjab days,
the days you hated me& my activities the most.
;D
nvm, if you have forgotten.
i knew you have really serious STM problem or rather NTM (no-term memory) problem.

im angry.
DAMN angry.
andd i got punished for not doing anything wrong.

the whole world knows that i will be godamnit working on saturday with only me mentioning once or twice.
i cann spend one freaking friday talking to you and yet nothing goes in.
i appreciate it, man.
i think at least two customers of mine HEARD and UNDERSTOOD what i said earlier.
in less than ten mins i must say.

to hell to all those logic,
they will be there when you needed them the most.
they will be there when you knew you had nothing left.
they will be there no matter what happens.

ya.
mine will be there to make life more difficult for me.
;D

dunn act as though you are concerned.
forget it,
we all know you aint.
it just makes me get more irritated.

you cann go on locking me out you know.
and then,
one day if i cant take it anymore,
you will find me disappear into the thin air.
;D

there aint much places for me to go though.
budd i m sure there will be a place which welcomes me more than you do.
though they might not be as blood related as you do.
budd the thing is,
i will feel belonged there.

whatever la.
i feeel like i m wasting my energy getting angry at you all you know.
yes,
i m so tired already.
i dunn even feel a thing.
the betrayed feel just kept coming in, you know.

and though i know,
you cann go on ignoring me for one whole damn week or perhaps month this time round?
i cant be bothered la.
i did no wrong.
andd i have a clear conscience.
if that makes you better,
go ahead..
i wunn mind.
anw,
it wunn makes much diff.
;D

i m done with my venting of anger.
and yes.
i m utterly disappointed, upset and angry at the way i m being treated,
and yes.
i m being superbly rude.
but,
i m really pissed off this time.

though you might not know,
but,
rmb,
i only raise my voice& get firmed on my stand when,
i m sure i did no wrong.
andd i did both today.
;D

i think i really act without thinking!
at all times!
HAHAHA!

budd i m enjoying every moments of my hasty decisions.
enjoying the gan chionging.
the stressing
& the funn out of it.

i really do things for the funn out of it.
thou,
i still dunn really understand why i would find working at this moment funn yet!
LOL.

anyway,
im still so scared.
scared of so many things!
seemed long since i last worked!
as a promoter!
needa go face ppl,
talk non stop.
damn. how many litres of bottles should i bring tml??!
omg.
andd dinner break how?!
one hour!
so torturous!!
arhhhh!

so many thoughts running thru my mind now!!
omg omg!!!
i still think im crazy!!

visit tml if you are free k!!
so i wunn be so bored during dinner break!!
will be stationed at suntec!!!
;)

and if you cant find me at the booth,
there is.
err.
COFFEE BEAN in suntec!
LOL!

the days when we would chat till late night.
the days when we would talk about everything under the sun.
the days when everything was perfectly fine.

;)

things are different now,
budd,
the bond is there.
the days will never return,
budd better days will lay ahead of us.

friends are forever!
<3

we shall meet up in fours again,
to drink a cup of coffee,
and laugh at our childishness back then.
;D

i await the arrival of the day.
till then.