ever have that kind of feeling,
where you feel like giving up everything right now,
to exchange for a stressfree life.
to exchange for a 'lighter' life?

that will be a point,
where you dunn feel like doing anything.
just wanna sit down there.
on the edges of the cliffs,
enjoying the breeze as it blows onto your face.

so exhausted.
with everything.
every single thing.

study seems so monotonous.
seems so neverending.
we worked like robots,
clearing messes after messes,
[quoted from sijia]
piles after piles.
we never know why we did that.
budd,
we just have to.

andd it seems like some drug.
that gets you all hooked up.
sth that you cant get rid of.

i just feel like dumping everything aside.
yes.
just feel like.
which means
i still have to face the reality.
which means.
get back to work.

imstartingtohateschmore&more.

even after 7 years.
i.
still.
think.

ma xiao ling is very pretty and sweet!
hahahas!

yes.
i m re-watchin vampire III.
cuz its showing on tv ma.
andd i know i m losing my beauty sleep.
andd i obviously know i have loads of stuff to do.
andd.
ok.
i m gg to do them now!
hahas.

ma xiao ling is prettty la!
=xxx

nightcycling can be very horrible actually!
HAHA
especially if your tyre punctures at less than a third of the journey.
andd the chain falls off immediately after you took over your new bike!
hahahahahas!
okok.
IMA LOUSY CYCLIST.

andd i dunno whether it is an honour to be escorted one-to-one by the safety vehicle.
this is crazy ok.
hahahs!

andd indeed,
i caused alot of troubles to the BB& NPCC in-charge!
mr or esp. la, benjamin la, gabriel la, timothy laaa (for being the MIA-medic), detail8 de in charge(s) la.
i think i really lian lei alot of ppl!
hahahahahaha.

andd now,
mr tan ching huat (VP of yt) knows that.
ms soh knows that toooo!
mr or boon chun knows that and tease me abt it every now and then.
andd practically all my sjab de people (minus the cadets hopefully) know that!!!!
even people like jiahong!! faints-
(thanks to mr or for spreading the news!)
hahahas!

andd the worst thing isnt that yet.
after being the fourth (last obviously) of the whole cyclethon,
(not my fault this time round larrr.
just that i accompany one of the cadets cuz of some medical cum technical cum physical problems! =P)
me sijia siewboonie gladys & yueying went up to the ambulance for a short nap.
anddd.
THE AMBULANCE TYRE PUNCTURES YET AGAIN!
i almost cried out la!
why again??
andd simon ow& th others were like...
LUANTING~~!!!
hahahahahahahahas!
okay laaaaaaa.
sorrrrry for bringing the tyre-puncture-bad-luck to you guys!
andd yes.
i know i will have to go jian fei le!!!
hahahahas!
andd we were sooo afraid that the bus we are takin back home will break down due to tyre puncturing case again!
oooops/.

luckilyyy.
IT DIDNT!
phew...

anyway.
all of us completed the 45km route.
which is real long..
andd somemore have to lead sooo many people.
andd is in the night somemore.

andd i swear this is one of the most crazy decision,
made at a crazy time,
andd done at a crazy time tooo.

andd i will learn my lessson.
hopefully sijia tooo!
yes!
we will slap ourselves hard the next time round!!!
hahahahas!!

btw!
cyndy chang, if you happen to be reading this,
jiayou for your report!!!!
hahahs!
finish liao jiu cann rest le!
=)))

andd,
i think my body is reacting crazily to my crazy acts le.
instead of aches all over,
i got wobbly jelly-like limbs all over!!
how to do reports like that????
helppppp!

in conclusion,
i m very unique.
HAHA.

cuzz this is actually the 3rd test i run,
andd miraculously, there are no repetition!
hohoho!
i have a funny face of my own.
;)

hahas! finally mine!



i look like emma watson???
they must be crazy!
muahahaha

andd xiuxiu has a jap look i think!
cuzzzz.
out of 10 pics,
got 8 is japanese!!
hahahas!

muahaha!
amui looks like lee byung xian!

what if you dunn understand what the whole ref book is trying to say when you are rushing a report?
what if you dunn get what the internet sources are talking about when you are rushing an assignment?
what if you are still slacking at this point of time?

then,
YOU WILL BE LIKE ME!!!

piles& piles of hw waiting to be completed!
andd i cant believe my weekends will be gone.
to do sth meaningful for once!
NIGHT CYCLING
okays i know i m crazy and you need not tell me that.

buddddd.
i will have funn!
muahahahha.

off to 咩咩一家！

i dunn like elearning laaa...

once bitten, twice shy.

andd that is why.
its so hard to trust again.
so hard to believe again.
so hard to see thru their motives.
so hard so hard.

andd
its gonna hurt so bad if it happens again.

why does these people exist anyway?
=(

i m so afraid of hurting people due to my selfishness.
budd
if i m not selfish,
i might end up getting hurt badly.

remember the times when you didnt wanna study
and your parents will tell you
"if you work hard now, life will be easier in the future."
andd you worked hard,
just for that easier future.

and as you worked,
the harder life becomes.
more homeworks.
more reports.
more assignments/projects.

and your parents will still say
"work hard now, better life in the future!"

but,
have anyone wondered that,
the harder you work,
the harder life becomes.

cuz,
the better you are,
the more capable you are,
the more diligent you are,
the more jobs/workload you get!

who the hell would say
"since you are so clever,
i will employ you to sit in my office and slack."

the situation will be more like
"hey, you're so capable.
work hard,
and i will promote you."

andd.
the more promotions you get,
the higher the position you have,
the more work you get!

see,
life is simple.
but definitely NOT EASY.

i feel like being a primary school kid right now.

how nice would it be.
if.
a heart attack.
can save me right now!

(so that i get hospitalised,
happily resting on the (eewws) mattress,
forgetting every single thing about the yet-to-be-completed reports& datasheets.)

fine.
i shall stop daydreaming and start getting back to work.
FROWNS*

budd i think i'm getting heart attack sooner/ later.
or maybe a blood transfusion.
aiyah.
either ways,
just let me get some rest& stop staring at this damn computer!
=x

how did you guys celebrated your mum's day?

hee.
we went to vienna international BUFFET on saturday afternoon.
and.
THE FOOD IS OH-SO-NICE.
i m so gonna tempt everyone there.
;D

as i said.
international buffet.
= loads of foods
= many cuisine
= many varieties
= irresistable.
and also,
= expensive.

yes.
the price is comparable to PARISS.
correction.
more ex.
=xx

and.
i believe that the food in vienna is nicer..
cuz mum recommended it!!
http://www.viennabuffet.com/welcome.asp

yummy abalone(S)
my fav. INARI (somemore with toppings!!)
fresh lobsters/crab/oysters/tiger prawns
nicely baked oysters, marinated unagi!!!
mini xiao long baos (i prefer ding tai feng's =x)
tempura prawns/crabs!
shark fin's& crab meat
buddha jumps over wall.
cocktails.
CHEESECAKE! (blueberry somemore! beams*)
CHOCOLATE CAKES. (you so gonna try it!)
fondues! (with marshmallows, grapes, cherry tomato etc& etc.)
anddd.
they have like mini/little appetisers that are presented in such a lovely manner.
egg salads.
spicy scallops.
kiwi w/ nata or sth.
cherry tomatos! w/ raisins& stuff.
teppanyaki.

and.
SO MUCH MORE.

okays.
now u guessed it.
i think i gained like a min. of 1kg after this meal!
grr.
how sinful.
andd dumb of me!!
fancy paying to get fatter!!!!
HAHA.

anw.
its realllly goood LA.
reallly alot of foooood to eat!
budd if you are not those that cann really really eat type.
denn maybe you'd have to give it a miss.
cuz really not worth gg in there and eat two bites of food.
=))

yummy food!!
thanks mummy!
and.
HAPPY MUM'S DAY!
love ya, mummy.

wadd if one day i wanna be like this again??

my brother say i m crazy.

last time papa insist on me having short hair,

i insisted on having long hair.

now.

he lemme grow long hair.

denn i decided to go short again!

hahahas.

as for my mumm.

she says.

"if you wann i cut for you ok?"

HAHA.

i will think about it.

again& again.

mum thanks, but have a nice wait.

=))

i'll continue to ponder to cut or not to cut.

=x

i think.
i seriously have a problem with myself.
i think i.
am abit err.
心理变态！
hahas!!!

i think i enjoy seeing myself suffer tremble scared irritated.
ooooops/.
cuz.
I ALWAYS DO THINGS TO MAKE MYSELF MISERABLE!
=xx

i love to take rides like the solero shots, roller coaster, those kinda from tall tall area drop down de rides, or those fly up high high to the sky de rides..
whenn i am afraid of heights! =.-
i told u i m crazy.

i know i cant do w/o enough of sleep.
i will somehow die the next day.
budd i simply LOVE sleeping late in the night when i know i will suffer the next day esp it is an early class!
andd then i will tell myself i deserved that.

i know i am always SLOW when doing my stuff.
budd i simply enjoy waiting till the night sets in, when the owls are out, before i start them all.
andd denn, curse& swear hard at myself for being so stupid& irritating!

see.
i enjoy doing things that even i myself gets irritated.
andd theres a long long list more to go!

i told you i m a psycho!
now,
in order to have a change..
i m gg to start my report!
(thou monday IS the deadline. andd there isnt only ONE report.)
in other words,
yes.
I M STILL PROCASTINATING.
bleah.

awww.
even abby replied.
(thou is like finally, after dunno how long. =x)
is he never gonna reply??
=(

btw!
went for angela's concert today in sch!
hmmmm.
not as jing bao as gary la.
budd not bad too!
hee..

andd.
imveryhungryaftertheswim.
andd mum says it is sinful to eat now!
=(

after torturing myself for one whole morning, afternoon &night,
i finally finish that fd packaging datasheet.
gosh.
ITS ONLY A DATASHEET AND I M TAKING YEARS TO FINISH IT.
=(

anw.
thanks to sheryl chong.
who.
motivated me to finish it up!
(by suan-ing of cuz.)
who.
send me some ref to prevent duplication of works.
who.
accompanied me to crap during the darkest period.

yay!
i cann go to bed now tooooo!
wohooooo.
nights.
=))

my aunt, uncle& mumsy.

this photo was taken like 2 yrs ago?
hahas!

must be thinking why suddenly post their photo up right?
hahas!!
cuzz i found some interesting fact!
thou they look difference on appearance wise,
they think& act the SAME!
hahahas!

bu kui shi from the same mother!!
oooops/.
sorry gua-ma.
no offence!
=xxxx