i m finally online!!!
was disconnected from the net for like near a week.
omgg.
i dunno how did i survived that anw.
hahas.
haven compressed the photos yet.
so no photos for the time being.

enjoying myself very much currently.
having so much fun and so much nice food.
=DD

and cindy is a great cook!
and thus.
yabba lady hates us alot.
cus our room is filled with garlic smell.
hahas!!

hmmm.
jia needs to go see her prof alr.
so gtg.
blog again soon.
andd with loads of photos.
dunn miss me everyone!
hahas
=DD

我又不知不觉地踩进去了。
对。
又是不知不觉。
好一个借口。

yepp yepp.
i m flying tml.
whee!
byeee.
i dunno how long later will it b before i blog again.
maybe before i fly off.
maybe few days/weeks later.

yaa.
i'll bring back loads of photos.
best if is all shuai shuai (chio chio) ang mohs right?!
hahas.
c.
i know u all well.
ya ya.
attach their numbers behind if possible.
HAHA.

ya la.
i m bored.
budd still gtg.
i haven finish packing!
hahas.
tata.

somehow.
new yr became sth so filled with burden.
the cleaning up.
the preparations.
the decorations.
the clothes finding process.
the money-out-no-in (for adults)
the eat-more-grow-more

omg.
new yr was once so wonderful.
so nice to gather tgt.
budd as years pass,
it became more& more of a burden.

mum was so pissed off with the cleaning up.
no one was helping out since i was having exams then,
bro& dad never seem to care much either.
aft my exams,
thou i did help out a lil,
nth much came out of it.
put it this way.
everyone (in my family) is just sick of it.
we're just plain too lazy to be bothered.

no family shopping for clothes.
no family shopping for new yr goodies.
everything was sucha last min event.
dad& bro bought their clothes like a few days b4.
it was just a err, 2hours 'shopping spree'.

decos are up there because they're supposed to b there.
cookies were made.
budd out of tireness, out of that i-m-supposed-to-do-sth mood.
mum was soo dead by then alr la.
you see,
it became more of a doing for the sake of doing event.

so is new yr itself.
we were roaming ard the empty corridors of shophouses on 1st day of new yr.
yes.
stare at the com.
roaming.
for half the day.
try not being sian.

thats the life of having most of ur relatives leaving so far from u.
that is my new yr.
somehow,
dad feels that it beats better denn us sitting in front of the com/tv.
-.-

day 2 was slightly more interesting thou.
gathering at aunt's house.
stare at the tv for the whole damn aftnn.
=D
i m insociable la.
hadd some yusheng, goodies, some chitchats
and the whole day is gone.

so now u understand,
why i dunn really look forward to new yr.
=))

budddd.
new yr cann be nice too.
cus.
.
.
there is pineapple tarts!!! (yummy)

andd.
since most hawker centres/coffee shops/ kopitiam/ food courts are all closed,
that means.
meals will be settled at (fast food) restaurants.
double yummy.

anddd.
this yr,
dad brought us to nyny.
[try brats with bacon& cheese!
muahahaha.]
so great food = good life.
yes yes.
its super pathetic to look forward to new yr due to these reasons.

budd i'm fine with it thou.
since i'll be gone soon.
whee!
one more day...
lala`

bedtime!

dad spells his words clear& sweet.
darn.
no means no.
not until u've step out into the society to work.
arghhss
why like that?
=((

nvm.
its still a yr away.
no bargains.
just slowly wait.
time flies anyway.
andd im not interested in further bargaining too.
i might endd up being said as being/gg to be a prostitute again.

if u're thinkin..
i m not doing sth illegal la.
just sth he dunn like.
so he gonna link everything andd make it sound so serious.

ya.
i know he cares la.
budd.
its just that its abit grrww to hear him say those so serious yet out of topic stuff.

maybe thats wadd generation gap is all abt.
i hope he would get over it soon thou.
andd not let this spoil the new yr mood.

talking abt that.
damn shoes!
i must have some grudges with them eons of years ago.
why it bite me?!!?
i almost fell while hopping during my bath just now.
okay.
exaggerating.
budd that shows how pain it hurts cann.
fine.
next time, i shall just heed the advices of the elders.

BITE YOU BITE YOU.
shoes.
hais!

i learnt a lesson today.
though this lesson 得来不易 .

i got cheated.
of my feelings.
my trust.
and.
my money.

hahas!
budd is true la.

the story of the money changer and the gong kia (blur kid)-

okays.
go overseas need change money right?
so hafta go check the rate.
so wunn 吃亏 by alot.
so gong kia went to 3 diff outlets in total.
northpoint de money changer
sun plaza (SP)
sembawang shopping centre (SC)

denn on 2 diff days.
SSC offers a lower rate as compared to the other two.

so.
this damn gong kia happily thinks that the rate offered will be the lowest on the third time she appear there.
so.
she dinn go check out the other outlets de rate.
denn ask the price.
piang oi.
so high?!

budd since is new yr period.
andd the rate has been increasing slowly.
so afraid that the rate will cont to rise,
she gan-jiong-ly went to change.

budd.
luckily, with abit of 不甘心,
she bargained abit,
denn changed only abit,
sufficient for survival.

denn.
she took a bus home.
pass by sun plaza.
butt itchy go check the rate at sun plaza.
damn.
is lower.
started cursing.
%!^#&!^*&(^%^#
went to bargain again.
andd that super nice uncle.
sold the dollars at a MUCH cheaper rate.
kaos.

sucky SSC money changer right?

k. confession time.
that gong kia is me la.
who else. -.-
laugh all u wann.
humphs!

i strongly believed that he cheated me la.
cus i think he cann recognise me.
damn.
亏我 put in so much trust in him.
grww.
i feel so cheated now.
thou.
end up i only lost a few bucks.
budd.
still v angry.
he cheated my feelings& trust ks.

luckily i dinn stupid stupid go change everything.
if not.
i'll hate myself so much.

lesson learnt: (1) never to trust any businessmen/ women.
and.
(2) not to patronise that ssc money changer again.
never again.
[i bet he must be grinning ear to ear now.
he must be damn proud that he managed to cheat me.]
(3) do check with at least 2 diff money changer before making any decision.

arghs.
i'll learn my lesson.
yes i will.

$^%^$&#^%*#^%*
stupid uncle.
hahas!

那是一种执着还是一种遗憾 ?
为何会放不下,
为何会耿耿于怀?
是不甘愿 ,
还是真的想要?
如果是想要为何却犹豫不决?

那颗出至于惭愧的心。

that special feeling still lingers.
andd a mystery lies within.

原来，现实与梦中之有一觉之差。

所谓一山还比一山高。
今天，我终于领教过了。

my mum is damn pro at bargaining.
super pro.
today.
我又大跌眼镜了。
i was so damn proud when i presented her my 22 bucks formal top.
so damn happy at the same time i finally got a proper formal attire.

denn she looked up at me calmly.
opened up a bag filled with male formal tops.
tada~
$4.80 per piece.
STARE HARd.
shocked huh.
guys formal top cheapest i saw was like $16?
or $18.
cheapest i saw.
and she actually managed to get one @ less than 5 bucks.
wth.

i think its gonna hard to find another bargain-er like her.
and.
you know where she found those tops?
SUNTEC.
like where cann you get those at that price.
dunn ask me.
ask the person beside may help thou.
=x

mum is sooo sweet.
knowing i have itchy tooth at night.
and that i simply cant resist the sight, the taste& everything of pineapple tarts,
she made mini-pineapple tarts as my midnight snacks.
(partially cus of the new yr too la~)

how mini?
length: half of my index finger.
width: slightly wider than my index finger.
(note: only slightly)

nice rightt?
cute& lovable.
and less sinful too!!
hahas!!
thanks mummy.
=))

yaaa.
another thing.
that mdm oh.
lured me to go friendster to read all those past testimonials written for us.
dated as early as 13 dec 2003
wow. thats 3 yrs plus ago.

we are damn childish cann!!
read meli's.
hers is highlight.
that guy in the dp is none other denn bae yongjun cann!!
omgg.
cann u imagine the craziness i was in when i watched winter sonata.
he was that charming denn.
budd not now.
sorry mr bae.
budd i prefer mr he more. =x

and that mr teo!!
that signature teacher in ytss.
that guy who separates me& jia.
due to none other denn being too noisy in class.
wadd else la~
lols.

and jiahao& boonseng's de.
summary: sijia& luanting = potential aunties.
LOL
read jia's too.
omgg.
soo many gossips& hot news la.
ya. & the cutting of hair,
the pen-knife story.

the cryings.
the sufferings.
the funn.
and the unglams!!
hahas.

so many images flew past our mind when we read that.
so many funny memories.
the running round stadium. (serenee!!! rmb?!)
i wasnt involved thou.
the fake cockroaches& butterflies.
etc etc.

and i come to realise.
i cann really crap.
that 4/5 pages long testimonial is a prove.
nth budd -CRAP.
omgg.
and the dreams we share.

hais.
budd ppl change.
vision changes too.
and now.
everything is not the same anymore.
all that we could do is.
treasure the present.
and not regret in the future.

too many regrets in pri sch.
in sec sch.
hahas.
we should have tried more stuff denn.
make our life more exciting.
thou we wunn score gd results due to not studyin hard enuff.
budd.
these memories will follow us in our hearts.
unlike history of china, russia& germany!
matrices, indices etc.

hahas.
no time for regrets now.
so i hope i wunn do anything to make myself regret!
=))

ohh and siewboonie.
i suddenly suddenly.
MISSES YOU LOADS.
i dunn0 why?!!
fri must turn up kaays!!
hahas.
nighties!

day after day as we drift apart,
the feeling we once shared faded.
even if we try hard.
it cann never be regained.

the old house was sold last week, this day.
marks the end of our stay there.
12 years 5 months of memories.

like so sadd.
actually.
i felt better denn.
much more better denn initially when i heard of the news that i m moving.
ya.
and i do know i sound like i m mourning for someone.

cant go back anymore.
budd come to think abt it.
even if i cann go back again.
it wunn be the same anymore.
the years we took to make it a home.

and it became a house in like a few months.
sense the diff?

and now,
i lost the interest in making this new house a home.
somehow somewadd.
i sense that they r gg to move out soon.
how soon?
i dunno la.
they just somehow mentioned abt it.
andd almost immd, i sian diao.

cus that will be = packing, packing & more packing.
try not being sian.

just hope that it wunn be so soon.
imagine me haven even start liking the place,
haven even meet my neighbours.
(sadd budd true. everyone leaves house early& reach home late. how to meet?!)
andd we r gonna move out.
zzz.
forget about that.

i dunn wanna think abt it anymore.
kks.
i gonna enjoy myselffff.
bye~!

i still loathe that feeling of having to walk home myself in the night.
simply hate that creepy-ness cum loneliness.
budd on the other hand,
i love the way the wind is blowing right on my face.

it is contradicting.
because the wind blows onto my face in the morning too.
budd the feeling is diff la. =p

forget it.
only i will come up with such silly logic.
and so only i will understand.
hahas.
i wunn blame anyone for it.
budd if u happen to be someone with that kinda silly logic,
do tag.
denn i will know i have ppl of e same genre as me.
heee.

and and.
it is nicer if the stars are up there to accompany u.
ya.
i m that drama.

anw.
it has been days since i bang into him.
hais.
no.
correction.
make it weeks.
so.
no motivation = low
sad right?
hahas.

okays.
i will come to understand that he is just another eye candy in a matter of time.
just bear with me now.
lalas.

saw many many heels today.
nice heels.
wanted to buy one.
budd perhaps.
as wadd pei says,
spoilt for choice.
and also,
perhaps new year is still a week away,
so i m simply procastinating.
till the last sec.
hahas.
and the same case applies to my formal top too.
booo.

now that my hair is gg to dry soon,
and i have run out of topic to crap.
i shall make a move.

happy hols to all those enjoying this mini break b4 itp.
happy schooling to all those whose slacking days aint here yet.
cheerios!

i realised sth!!!!

omgg omgg

i have been shouting& screaming more often in my new house as compared to in my old house.

lols.

okays.
i sense that very cold stare.
dunn like that la~

i came online specially to post this.
just in case i forget abt it the next time i come up.

okay okay.
that cold stare is getting stronger.
=xx

i shall shut up and go back mugging denn.
hahas.
aja aja fighting ppl~~

felt very emo out of a sudden la.
felt so bad.
was msging cindy from stage b.
needed her to help me pass the cheque to mrs ser.
denn.
out of nowhere..
i felt myself being such a nuisance.
such a burden if thats wadd u call.
she dinn reject me though.
in fact she sounded somewadd excited.
i dunno why.

now.
why a nuisance.
hmmm.
in the case like i keep bothering ppl.
troubling ppl for help.
though much of them are most willing to.
(thanks pal& frens, i've got so many great frenss ard. && sorry for being sucha bother.)
budd i still feel bad.

maybe one day.
if i managed to stop asking ppl for help.
stop bothering ppl out of nowhere.
stop being like sucha weakly.
denn maybee.
that wunn be me anymore..

budd.
one have to keep improving yea.
keep on moving on.
to change for a better person.
to grow up and learn.
and in this process,
you might or might not be urself anymore.
(just like yoyo. hers was a gd change though, just that we couldnt get used to it.)

wah.
now i m surprised by my words also.
grrrww.
see.
i told ya so.
i dunn wanna grow up.
i'll be so changed la.
=((

haiss.

for those who have helped me a lil/a lot (esp)
thanksy again.
for being there for me.
great pals& frenns
w/o you guys.
i dunno how i'd survive.
maybe i could.
budd life wunn be the same anymore.

have a good night.
maybe a good night sleep will stop me from thinking so much though.
=))

mug hard ppl.
last paper and off to hols.
(^_^)

ohh ohh.
and chinese new year too!!!

aja aja fighting~

(yeapie. an entry free of copyright. lala)

arghs.
before reading sheryl de tag.
i was like just disappointed by the qns.

now.
i m super disappointed by that dumb teacher.
wadd the shit.
half of the paper was given to them.
like FINE.
still take exams for wadd denn.
must as well just give them all the qns.

like if u wanna give tips.
should b at least fair enuff to everyone wadd.
set so super sucky dumb paper denn give tips to specific ppl only.
wadd the shit?!!!
i dunn mind if u give tips.
who doesnt love tips anw.
budd how cann u be so selfish.
damn the teacher who gave half of the paper to the ppl.
arghs...

i m v angry.
esp after rmbing this exam is worth 60% of the whole module.
DAMN.

i hope AG& his grp of lecturers wunn do the same thing.
cross fingers.
no please.
='((

cep was super sucky.
very sucky.
extremely.
arghs.

how could our beloved mrs choo do this to us??
like wadd the hell.
hais.
so its a gone case now.
grrww.
angry!
forget it.
wads done cannot be undone.

anw.
bro came home and told us about wadd he did in his cca.
omgg.
when he was mentioning the drilling part..
how i missed it.
arghs.
though i forgot like sooooo many sooo many commands& e actions.
budd was like..
the days we had..
e times when we started drilling.
trainingss.
go for competition.
etc etc.

and rmb the prize giving drill.
denn we form a circle and do it.
ohhh.
sadded.
the days just gone by like this.
replaced are horrible memorising-notes& calculations-of-pressure,statistics-days.

will it be possible if one day.
we get tgt
and drill together once again.
just like the days.
haiss.

these kind of days will never come back.
budd the memories do stay.
=))

yawns-
so very the tired now.
budd no!!!
must jiayou jiayou.
cus i had hardly did any revision for cep till now.
sinful.
guilt-ridden.
and in less than 48 hours,
i gonna take that paper.

gosh.
my bed loves to tempt me everytime at this critical moment.
and that bottle of yet to finish bottle of wine.
oooops/.
i just hope i wunn gulp it all down before dad returns.
if not.
i think i'll be ranted at nonstop. =((

ohh.
and mum said sth powerful today!

mum: hmm. wadd do u guys think of having a spy camera at home??
me& di: -blanked- for wadd?
mum: stares at di. so i 'll know if someone trys to be funny behind my back or when i m overseas.

zzz.
so now.
i cant do funny stuff also.
i cant go out ton just becuz i feel like.
i cant stay out late late out of no reasons.
i cant stay up for the whole night to watch drama.
and i was thinkin of gg pubbin or clubbing after july.
arghss.
cannn u imagine a life with a camera staring at u???!!!
no i cant.
n i dunn wish for it too.

prays
mum!
u wunn be so cruel de right.
i just hope she doesnt try sth funny like this..
its NOT funny.
=((

okays.
off to some serious revision.
after some nice chat with my coussie.
which will be like eons of hours later.
hahas.