liquor-

i m so addicted to it.
HAHA.
i know i sounded like some alcoholic freak.
budd i m absolutely in love with it now.
especially the one i m taking now.

i know i will have thiamin deficiency blah blah blah budd i not gonna care!
hahas.
anyway.
i have it only at home.
under the eyes of my goddess statue
oooops/.

and i do feel some dizziness right now!
hahas.
CRAP -_-
budd i like. ;P

brussels sprout'

something that i have been chanting for the past few days.
my classmates know why.
"goitrogens reduces iodine absorption, present in brussel sprouts blah blah blah"

my mum seems to have been influenced by me.
so she brought brussels sprouts for today's dinner.

yucks.
all i cann say is i dunn like.
i ate it long long ago.
long enough to forget the yucky taste.
i m not a picky eater.
so if i meant yucks.
it really is 'eeew'.
in other words, inedible.
maybe some might like that taste though.

luckily mum says:
the next time u gonna see this,
u'll have forgotten the taste.
phew~
it meant that..
i wunn have to eat it till like another 8347 days.
lala~

just a light hearted post.
to make me forgot my minerals& vitamins notes for the time being.
(please do come back after this post. i said please.)

jiayou to everyone who is mugging.
its gonna end soon enough.
WHEE~

like always..



yupp.
the number looks familiar right?!
lolss.
is pure coin that i bump into it.
was intending to reply xuanxuan de tag!!
hahass

okays.
at least i sound normal even after all these muggings.
budd.
i may look diff.
my panda eyes and all.
HAIS.
this kinda life MUST end.
humphs!
nights all.

retreat for an early night.
lala.

my brain is so fully packed now.
so saturated that hardly anything can enter.
budd i still have a biggg pile of notess to stuff in.
omgg.
so sad now.
=((

and.
my bro just came home.
shrieks at mum n me:
ma, jie-
my new bike is stolen!

like wadd the shit.
i haven even glance/bio/look/peep and not to mention ride on it cann.
and now it is lost.
like so sian dia0 now.
75 bucks just gone.
the dream of my papa riding me ard gone as well.

arghs.
damn the person who stole it.
hope your pants drop down in front of the girl u like
hope you fall into a puddle of mud.
hope you will never get to meet the girl in your dreams.
hope you will be shunned by everyone!!
arghss.
damn person!

hais.
enuff of ramblings.
gtg muggg.
vitamins here i come~~

ohh yahh!!
i m getting myself so mentally prepared for the trip that..

if the bed that we r gonna sleep on is not a queen size but two single size bed..
i gonna get soooo disappointed.

and guess wadd i gonna do denn.
as promise,

I WILL PUSH THE TWO BEDS TGT TO MAKE A QUEEN SIZE BED!
hohohoho!

i really sound pervetic, dunn i?

okays.
i just hope cindy aint gonna get scared of her wits by me/her/us.
lols.
prays that everything goes well.
i m anticipating!
;D

have you ever wondered how two ppl from two diff background or for some diff race/religion can live together harmoniously?

have you ever wondered how great the courage is to get yourself to live with another person?

have you ever wondered how much your parents went thru just to live tgt?

i wondered.
too much.
now i m scaring myself.
haha.
since when i m not anw.

budd its just so amazing how they can tolerate each other.
their diff habits
diff living style
diff character.
"所谓相处容易相住难"
- quoted from sijia

its like.
sometimes.
you get so fed up when u r living with ur siblings along.
cann u imagine how u gonna live with someone else who is not blood related?

perhaps thats why love is there.
perhaps thats why theres sth call fate.
perhaps.
thats wadd i had never been thru.
thus is unable to understand that special force thats gonna drive you to do sth that a normal person cann never do.

maybe someday.
when i meet the special someone.
when i finally understand all these miracles.
i might change my decision of being single.
hahas.

till then.

The Woman

When God created woman,
he was working late on the 6th day.

An angel came by and asked: "Why spend so much time on that one?"

And the Lord answered:" Have you seen all the specifications i have to meet to shape her?"

"She must be washable, but not made of plastic, have more than 200 moving parts which all must be replaceable and she must function on all kinds of food, she must be able to embrace several kids at the same time, give a hug that can heal anything from a bruised knee to a broken heart and she must do all this with only two hands."

The angel was impressed.

"Just two hands? Impossible!
And this is the standard model?!
Too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow and then complete her."

"I will not, said the Lord. "i am so close to complete this creation, which will be the favourite of my heart."

"She cures herself when sick and she can work 18 hours a day."

The angel came nearer and touched the woman.

"But you have made her so soft, Lord"

"She is soft," said the Lord, "But i have made her strong. You can't imagine what she can endure and overcome."

"Can she think?" the angel asked.

The Lord answered: " Not only can she think, she can reason and negotiate."

The angel touched the woman's cheek.

"Lord, it seems this creation is leaking! You have put too much burdens on her."

"She is not leaking. It's a tear," the Lord corrected the angel.

"What's it for?" asked the angel.

And the Lord said:" Tears are her way of expressing grief, her doubts, her love, her loneliness, her suffering and her pride."

This made a big impression on the angel; "Lord, you are a genius. You thought of everything. The woman is indeed marvellous!"

Indeed she is!

Woman has strengths that amazes man. She can handle trouble and carry heavy burdens. She holds happiness, love and opinions. She smiles when feeling like screaming. She sings when she feels like crying, crys when she is happy and laughs when she is afraid.

She fights for what she believes in. Stand up against injustice. She doesn't take 'no' for an answer, when she can see a better solution. She gives herself so her family can thrive. She takes her friend to the doctor if she is afraid. Her love is unconditional.

She cries when her kids are victorious. She is happy when her friends do well. She is glad when she hears of a birth or a wedding.

Her heart is broken when a next of kin or friend dies. But she will find the strength to get on with life.

She knows that a kiss and a hug can heal a broken heart.

There is only one thing wrong with her.

She forgets what she is worth..

so now.
if you think.
you fit the above description.
and happens to be a female.
be glad that you are born like that.
god is fair sometimes.
=))

the stars up in the sky here cheers me up totally.
(wadd thing doesnt cheer me up totally? lols.)
budd ya la.
the stars here are way better denn in yishun.
which is absolutely true.
cus in yishun.
no matter how i placed my head outside of my balcony window, i cann only spot like that few pathetic stars out there.
and here,
i just need to stand in the balcony area (or patio u call it)
and BAHH
stars all over!

so happy.
hahas.

another happy news.
dad is getting two new bikes.
one for didi and one for e rest of us.
lala.
why happy over that?
hmmm.
that means.
i cann get to ride it as and when i like la.
[and.
this time round.
i cann ride fast fast.
away from that laoo bei bei.
the bike will move le.
oooops/.]

and i think.
i am gonna like psycho my dad to buy that thingy to allow ppl to stand at the back.
denn he cann zai me ard!!!
HAHA.
so nice yea.
lala~

so daddy.
hurry get the bikes.
wheee.
i m so happy.
i just hope.
it wunn be a short-lived happiness.
u get worried when too many happy stuff gets ard.
=S

nights!

i m packing for my oitp!
super excited la.
hahas.

rambling through all my winter clothings.
SO COOL la.
i saw so many many clothings.
omgg.
super highness.
cause it has been 2 yrs since i went overseas.
minus malaysia obviously.

i think i gonna get such big luggage there la.
shrieks!
i hope i wunn b the kiasu one.
bringing so muchhh stuff there!
buddd since i will there for so long.
bring a bit more wunn v bad right.
hahas.
so high now!

must b thinkin i crazy ars
still got like one more month denn go denn now i packing alr.
hahas.
cuz my mummy more excited denn me cann??
lols.
no la.
cuz she just came back from swiss.
so lazy pack back the stuff.
ask me take wadeva i wann out first denn she no need so ma fan after that.
plus.
i might not have the time to pack la!
cuz after this week will be exams for two weeks.
denn might b flying to malaysia to visit granny for awhile
before coming back for new yr.
denn after new yr like few days should b flying alr.
see my schedule so packed!
how to pack??!
lols.

yupp yupp.
kk i hurry go pack le!!
omggg.
the hats and gloves.
jia.
u better pack more!
denn i wunn so kuku!
lols.

sadness.

i think i cann sense myself growing older.
why so?

i m so into heels recently.
only women wear loadsa heels. (to me~)
i m so into handbags too.
only women love handbags.
i have this sudden crave for redness.
only women like red!
and so many many more.

OMG.
this is so me-not me !!

why like that?
i dunn wann be 18 la.
i wanna remain 17.
thou i cant do many things at that age.
budd i dunn wann to grow old!

xuanxuan says i starting to look demure!
omg.
I DUNN WANN IT NOW la.
thats like so sad!
cus i realised.
even if i look demure.
he jun xiang wunn wann me!
HAHA

so wadd for.
lala.
=x
maybe perhaps morris would hors.
lols!

arghs..
andd.
to make things worse.
MUM STOLEN ALL MY PLUSHIES!
my bedtime companion.
they gave me warmth. sense of security. love.
now they are gone!
and all is left.
is that DOODOO doll.
with yy and jia picture on it.
OMG.
faints.
i wann my cookie monster and doggie
i wann my huggies. my snuggles. my cuddles!
='((
mummy u bully me!

they say diff ppl has diff life.
how true is it?
just had a talk with pei.
cann sense that kinda tension in her.
that kinda stress that none of us had experienced.
at least for now.
that kinda betrayal she got.
the hurting experiences and stuff.
why?
why do we have to go thru all these?
to find out who is the strongest in the end?
does all these vying has an ending in the first placE?

and how true is ppl's true colours?
when they show u one side of your face, and hides the others.
wadds their motive.
when do u know if they r showing their true side or not.
i m so sad.
to see the kinda area we r living in.
the kinda miserable life where we fight for almost everything.

and the selfishness of ppl.
why does god has to make things so complicated?
why cant he just have it simple and nice.
cuz we dunno how to appreciate things when it is simple?
or only when that happens,
we understand the true meaning of simplicity of thing?

i feel so sad now.
for myself. for my fren. for the society.
i just hate the way earth revolves round the sun and produces meany man like u and me.
this hell lot cycle sucks.

sometimes.
i do hate myself alot.
for finding so much troubles for myself.
for making myself so troubled.

the things i do.
confused myself too.
i dunn0 why i do it.
i dunn0 why i have to do it.

now.
i have so much to think thru.
so much to wonder.
so much to guess.

and.
it owes to a moment of funn.

i should have learnt how to not tink too much.
should have.

he says i act like a kid.
he says i have a childlike curiosity.
he says i gets excited over the slightest thing.
he says i am lively and is too loud at times (and loud most of the times. =x)
he says i blabber rubbish.
he says my jealousy comes in quite easily.

so now,
which temperament am i??!!

fear not.
i am just revising my sure-gonna-fail test tml.

and.
bad.
i feel for the breeze and stars again today.
ohh how i missed it.
swing swing!

今日的风好小好小。
小得让我的脑子混着了。

今日的星星好亮好亮。
亮得我看不清楚方向。

我需要的是大风，
让我的脑子能够清醒些。
让我抛开烦恼，
忘了所有的不愉快。

没有脚车的日子好难熬。
没有单车的日子也是如此。
好像好像在路上狂飙 !

after yy, shu, boon left,
had a quick shower, changed and went roaming on the streets of admiralty.
no wind.
not much stars (was covered by the clouds)
not much cars either.

very abnormal of me t0 do that.
since i hate that kinda errie feeling to walk abt at night.
budd.
i did that nonetheless.
just to get out of the house.
for some fresh air.
before i get cage-d up again.

it was nice walking along the fields.
it was nice sitting at the playground while waiting for the never-gonna-come wind.
it was the best when strolling between the blocks where the wind came back!

i dunn0 why.
it is so windy at my area.
yet e opp blocks seemed so much diff.

has been long since i carried such light feeling to walk ard.
to stroll on that supposed-to-rush street.
yes.
maybe i should really learn to slow down my pace.

tsk tsk*
the result of mixing too much with sijia, the fast pacer.
hahas.
kidding la~~ (^_^)

the night seems especially short.
maybe because it is diff.
maybe because its gonna be diff in a few hours time.
maybe because this might never happen again.

budd wadeva it is.
i enjoyed myself.
thou not to the fullest extent yet,
budd yes i did.

thanks for the company pals.
and please.
remember to tell your mum(s) i m sorry!
and do ask them not to dislike me.
i gonna feel so sad la~
if they gonna dislike me.
sobs!

you guys have been acc me for like the two whole weeks.
esp jia and yy.
and jun for the last week.
i dunn0 wadd would happen to me w/o u guys.
thanks loads!

and you too. ;D

我不能阻止危险的发生，
但我可以保护你。

omggg.
恶魔在身边 craze is back。
he jun xiang is still that omggg as ever.
HAHAs

ohh.
did i mention that.
while shopping just now.
i saw these really really sweet little shorts?
omgg.
black with red threads .
greyish blue with lime green threads?
arghs.
i gonna get a camera phone soon!

i dinn buy it in the end.
was pondering hard whether to start dressing that way again.
cus i know i will get hooked by these mini shorts.
length is like from my thumb to my pinky?
=x

budd.
chances are gonna be big.
cus.
that seemed to be the only thing that excite me today.
minus that

new dumb dumb
i wann my gum gum.
=))

and.
the heels.
plasticy heels.
in red?!
black?!
omgg.
faints.
thatss so SAO!
=x
ok. call it hot for self console.
its sweet.

HEY!
maybe i do know wadd shoes i gonna get for new year!
yes!
those RED or BLACK SHINY heels.
pointy heels.
HAHAs.
i cann visualise my dad screaming at me.
over that shorty shorts and heels..
lala.
sorry dad!

wait.
together with a manly formal top!
visualise me gg to wear that to bai nian!!
thats like soooo.
LOUD!
yes.

oooops/.
that ever omg- luanting might be back anytime.
HAHAs.

feeling so drained up.
energy. mood. everything.
need a breather. a break. wadeva u call it.
budd.
dad and mum are coming back.
hard to do sth enjoyable and relaxing.
i just hope they will be nice to me when they are back.
at least until my exams are over.

no.
i m not having pms.
maybe post?
arghs.
i just feel down.
feel for that sudden urge to get out.
and weird thou,
in the night.

budd apparently.
its gonna be hard.
and thou,
there might be someonee who just reappeared might be able to do that favour, i m not totally keen abt it.
ooops/.
fancy being fussy at this dumb point of time.

HEY!
if i get makqinxiong to bike me ardd.
will it be dumbbb?
okays.
i m that desperate.
fine.
its just a comment..
and.
he might not even wanna bike me ard in the first place.
=((

i must go and make more frenn.
add on: who knows how to bike.
=x

the days we used to have.

will it be back once again?

=((

i need sth to cheer me up.
i need the wind.
the breeeze.
yes. the bike if possible..
:DD
and preferably a kind soul who is willing to waste some petrol and time on me.
and yes.
the kind soul must know how to ride a bike obviously. =S
some dumb wish.
anw.
if you happen to wish to be the kind soul, yes do tag.
or call me.

imwaiting~~

today was fab.
not totally because i managed to see him la~
thou..
99.99% was cus of him.
hahas.

its like so omgg.
i was supposed to miss him alr.
cus was totally late by 30 mins??!
yet.
he still appear in front of me..
omgg.
so wonderful.
budd.
jia spoilt everything by saying:
i managed to meet him too.
bOo.
(we came at diff time.)
nice one.
and she say.
the teacher was late ma..

budd.
isnt so wonderful?
yep.
it sure is.
thanks god and whoever who blessed me!
hahas.

after schh.
met gladys on mrt.
and dragged her to my house.
oooops/.
cus yueying comin alr ma.
so shun bian drag her lo..
and.
she called priscilla along.

and we pranked yueying.
by hiding gladys.
hahass.
and she is superrrr slowww.
hahas.
cus we gave her many many clues.
yet she has no feeling.
same bag. same shoe.
yet she happily thinks its sheer coin.
hahas!
so funn.=x
and we messed up my house again!
hahass.

it seems like the holidays.
where we cann play carefreely.
finally.
we are off from quizzes.
period.
thats sooo nice!
and life is gg to be great again after the exams.
8 feb!
=))

ohh.
and i did sth stupid to my nails.
hahass.
and i think i gonna get more of this stupid stuff for it.
whee.
its soooo funn.
the feeel is sooo great!
life is great now. ;)

so tired today.
went to shop with shu.
omgg.
is like..
so funn!!
hahas..

and i.
no. is we.
bought a lot of stuff.
we bought a bag each.
[yes. again. the previous spoilt. =( ]
bought a watch each.
bought lots of food to eat.
yummy.
and more.

i m spending soooo much..
=((
so gonna be broke.
hahas.
and.
i feel real sad whenever i c my previous bag.
hais.
why did it have to spoil.
somemore in just two days.
=((

off to revise fd mat.

been a hectic week.

before sch starts.
was busy with gatherings.
first time attending sooo many gatherings at a go.
close frens should know why.
hahas.
like so abnormal to c me present in all e gatherings la.
normally i will like go 1 out of 3.
hahas.
i m a known psk.
wadd to do.

when sch starts.
busy with quizzes and presentation.
wadd to do.
was slacking thru out the hols.
perhaps not really.
fancy having to study the quizzes on the day itself.
lucky god blessed me.
quizzes r in the aftnn.
if not.
i really dunn0 how i would have died.
and of cuz.
million thanks to sijia.
who answered so many of my i-should-have-known qns.
budd i really forgot every single thing.
i havenn touch it for like near a month.
=S
who ask me backside itchy.
go read fd mat notes.=x
read: go READ fd mat notes.
not study.
yes.
i m UNPREPARED for it yet.
dunn worry.

many things have been wandering in my mind despite that busy week.
many stuff.
silly yet so-luanting stuff.
lols.
i really wonder wadd my brain is made up of.
maybe i should try opening it up one day.
;) like how possible.

yes.
i m still wondering who is that dumb guy who appeared in my dream as my husband.
like who will not get excited over it.
esp if it is LUANTING.
=x
i m aso wondering whether i m gonna meet him* in SP grounds again too.
or perhaps outside?
hahas.
minus this friday which i m gg to FIND him.
oooops/.
i will try to be a bit less despo.
HAHAs.
c.
i told u.
my mind are installed for silly stuff like this.
hahas.
still wanna know wadd i have been thinkin of?
u sure??
hahas..


p.s. I SAW HIM AGAIN!
hahas. this is how fate works i guess. ;)

it doesnt seem so me to post lyrics up here.
budd.
was at the lowest point of my mood.
no particular reason.
maybe because..

(1). i have a ppt to complete
(2). i have yet to finish revising my cep/qaas
no.
i have yet to START revising.
(3). i m listening to songs that are making me more low
(4). i m feeling hungry!

i m absolutely fine.
just.
feeling very sad. very mixed-up feelings upon listening to that song.
that makes me feel like posting up the lyrics.
i dunn0 why either.
=((
everything seems so weird now.

hmmm.
perhaps, thats why
it is absolutely normal for me to post up [not-like-me] stuff now.
CAUSE.
at that particular point of time.
luanting is not luanting.

okays.
i m blabbering shit here.
ignore me.
nights!





if you dunn mind joining my lameness.
guess who is this!
hahas.

That's Why (You Go Away)

Baby won't you tell me why
There is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye
To you
Love is one big illusion
I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget
Every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way your kiss is
The feeling's so strong
Were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied
No matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye
To me
Love is one big illusion
I should try to forget
There is something left in my head

I won't forget the way your kiss is
The feeling's so strong
Were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man
Your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

Yes i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me
Anymore

I won't forget the way your kiss is
The feeling's so strong
Were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

That's why you go away I know

grrwww.
i m still so angry.
ystd's episode has yet come to a satisfying end and now they are creating part 2 (not including the other days they had irritated me)
fine.
maybe i m that easily irritated.

anw.
they are gone.
so at least i get to have some peace.
which is like so nice!
lala~

like wadd my cousin says, my mood changes very quickly.
esp when my anger turns into a light hearted mood.
which is good.

yaya.
and and!
THE TRIP IS CONFIRMED.
thats like superbly nice.
and yes.
my bad mood is covered up by this totally.
whee..
jumps in delight*
i just have to pray.
that the two adults are not gonna do anything thats gonna upset me greatly.
yupp.
=DD

i m happy luanting once again! =D

do the things i do so complicated?
i think it does.
do the things i think so complicated?
maybe it does too.
do the things i say sounds complicated?
okays.
i think it does too.

i m okay.
not spouting nonsense.
just feeling very upset. disappointed.
and a tinge of anger left.
yes.
i m very very very angry just now.

ask me to stop talking about the matter.
denn after that,
you go behind my back and start whispering things about me.
like wadd the hell.
you wann me to stop.
fine.
denn i shall stop.
budd shouldnt you too?

denn.
i tried to tell you things i know.
i have been to the mrt station like for so many times cann.
denn u try to push away my intentions by saying things like i think i m so great.
like wadd the shit.
fine.
i shall stop talking.
denn you start to ask me again.

if you think i think so highly of myself.
if you think that the sight of me irks you.
denn DONT LOOK AT ME!
no one is asking you to look at me cann.
its your own wish.
dunn ask me when you dunn even trust me in the first place.
like for wadd.
you are gonna doubt my words after that.
save it denn.
dunn get me involved.

you are sooooo goddamnn anxious about him.
denn go ahead.
i did my share.
got rejected.
shun away.
and criticised somemore.
fine denn.
so.
if one day.
you are gonna say i did nth.
dinn get involved.
you better think twice.

i dunn seem so nice to bully do i?
i dunn seem so nice to get order around, do i?
i dunn seem like a maid to you, do i?

there isnt a need for you to tolerate my nonsense.
and so,
there isnt a need for me to tolerate yours too.
get that right.

i m soooooooo pissed offf..
tried getting your good intentions being treated like this.
tried getting all those so-called concerns be treated like this.

yes.
i admit.
i dunno how to show concern.
i dunn even get the meaning of it.
and this is why.

okay.
i m feeling better after the rant.
=D