blogger is mad
blogger is mad
blogger is mad
BLOGGER IS MAD

fine.
i tink u guys will c it only like a few days later.
hopefully.

eat away my sakae entry.
grrww.
better dunn eat my goong ing entry.
if not.
if not.

fine.
i cant do anything abt u anyway.
that makes me more mad.
grrww

the more i watch goong.
the more i feel like havin a bf.
lols.
sound so weird dehs.

okays.
lets just push aside e fact tt no one would wann me.
just lemme fantasize here for a moment or so.
hahas.

its like so sweet to c couples tgt.
though is only on e tv.
like how 信默默地给予彩静的温柔.
is like so 小心翼翼，却不马虎。
that kinda like.
似有若无的感觉。
makes me sooo excited.
hahas.
ya.
i m sorta crazy.
in e show she is jumping wit fury.
budd e kinda sweet she gets.
is like sooo undescribable.
is like soo enuff alr.

e moments by e beach
e small moves he made
though he is sucha shy guy.

i meann.
i m realli moved by e way he tries to make life perfect for her.
while tryin hard to make things easy for her when they gonna leave each other one day.
that kinda thoughts.
kinda moves.
make me.

soo touched.

i feel like havin a bf.
好久都没有这种感觉了耶。
hahas.

okays.
i noe i wunn make a great/gd gf
i noe my limits la~
i not as sweet as her.
as 贴心 as her.
as kind hearted as her.

budd.
just wanna come here fa lao sao.
just wanna.
tell e whole world.

I WANN A BF!!
NOW!
yes. NOW!
come grab me now yea?
hahas.
kks.
post symptoms for studyin too much milk.

procastination kills.

gosh.
studied since aftnn.
none of e qaas stuff went in i guess.
or rather that lil amt went in.
budd it wunn matters anw.

getting so pissed off.
yucks.
n starin at e clock..
guess tml's paper will b a hell lot of shit.

i m still not in e mood to study.
no matter how much stress i m givin myself.
or rather.
these self-stressing is makin me ignorin everything.

blog hoppin seems more fascinating.
so is goong-ing.
okays.
everything except qaas quiz la~

hais.
why must spoil my hari raya holiday lidattt.
okay.
maybe not mine.
budd still.
why must spoil it?
grrww.
amos goh.

reports not touched.
see it.
is touched*
not done*
a great diff.
datasheet left to rot.
n so is me.

fine~
i shall cont rotting.
bOo.

wed - QAAS quiz
fri - cengpr datasheet
fri - psychology skit

there goes my weekends.
my naps.
my rests.

at this rate.
i tink i will die soon.
very soon-

maybe i should just stop stressing myself so badly..
i just wished i could.

to tink i m still considering to woRk.
i must be insane.
wrong.
i have always been insane.
or rather
i have never been sane.

=((

i tink i m seriously affected by e weather n e monthly cycle.

mental block.
plus hungry stomach.
thats e best combi u cann get when u r rushin a datasheet or a report.
any idea how grrww it is?!!
i cant resist e temptations of e biscuits.
neither cann i resist my room/bed.
u know how it feels when ur bed and plushies stare at u and ask u to hug/lie on them??

hais.

m drained.
m tired.

northee gathering part 1 ended.
part 2 coming up!
yippee.

okays.
i know i sound lethargic.
or rather dead.

budd.
its not cus e outing is not funn.
just maybe.
too tired.
plus minor pms-ing.
i hope.

grrw.
why do i feeL sooo tired.

n now.
i cant go swim tml.
hais.
god played a trick on me.
=((
m in no mood to cheer up.


混乱的心情只让我反感。
月经的出现让我烦躁。
好讨厌啊！！ =((

gosh.
i tried sth super fab today.
listen up!

shin, xiu and all bitter chocs lovers out there!!
omg.
tried e samples mr samueL gave us (jo n me)
is HEAVENLY cannn.
wahahas.
super super nice.

is those kinda u hafta try denn u will noe e kinda feeeling.
those 甜在心头。
苦中带甜。
cant imagine yea?
there isnt a need.
just go n try!
wahahas.

is ex la.
seriously.
cus is priced at $54 for 18 pcs.
budd.
if share among a grp of ppL.
eat one each.
aso shuang dao bu xing!
lols.

here is e link: http://avolcsstory.blogspot.com/

omg.
still got loads of chocs in there.
believe should be fab too!
go take a look.

btw.
e guy in it not bad looking!
hahas.

did e ifpd thingy today aft sch.
from yam paste.
to pumpkin paste.
denn now.
muffins with pumpkin fillings.
lols.
like so incredible.

and the thing is.
e yr 3 r doin some muffins stuff in the kitchen too.
was tinkin as e aroma of the muffins flooded me.
hmm.
i shall do some muffins real soon.
i miss e taste.

denn who knows.
e next moment.
we did it!
lols.

tried out some methods in doin it la.
with the help of the recipe kop from e yr 3.
lols.

finally finalised the idea.
now.
we r gg to be more focus.
hope it turns out well.
=D

yummy muffins rock my worLd.
heees.

went home wit jia.
n we end up tinkin n evaluating crazy stuff.
how crazy?
stuff like killing, fen shi.
hahas.

we r just tinkin wad will happen to BLL if encountered with some unpredicted stuff or when BLL doesnt reap wad he/she sows.
hahas.
denn ended up scarin ourselves.
say maybe will kill e other party for spoiling the plans.
or maybe will fen shi.
lols.

like so scary la.
budd it might b true.
come to tink abt it.
is reali abit bian tai la.
i mean BLL's nature.

arhhh.
dunn say le.
if not i wunn be able to go to sleep tonight.
hahas.

who is BLL arx.
hmmm.
its some secret encoding.
so cannot anyhow reveaL
plus.
my blog like yue lai yue duo ren read le.
so cannot anyhow say le.
ahahs.

我怕我真地会
偷偷的，
悄悄的，
不小心的，
爱上了他。

如果真是如此，
那我该怎么办好呢？
那将会是怎样的结局的？

天啊！！

可知想太多的意思是什么吗？
就是。。
在事情未发生前。。
就去想结局！！

不想了不想了！！
乖乖去做事去！

ystd.
was a great day.
overall.

had a MEGA celebration.
or maybe two?

was xiuxiu bday la~
denn we celebratin for xuanxuan aso.
since hers will b tml.

had a class (mock) celebration durin lunch.
pranked her with e relightin candles.
which failed halfway.

not tt it matters.
budd we were conned!!
it only costs 1 buck at skp budd 2.50 at cards n such.
grrww.
n the quality is like.. -.-

the cake was.. okay.
still abit diff from outside cakes.
though is way better denn fdcourt 5's.

btw for those who dunn0.
e cake is from mr samuel.
may visit his blog for more details.
http://samscakes.blogspot.com

actually he asked me to link him long time ago.
budd.
lazy la.

must be askin..
denn why now suddenly wann advt for him..
cus he gave us discounts!!
hahas.
though he is abit.
i mean very unfair when givin discounts.

imagine me talkin for 15 mins to ask him to sell us at cost price.
while sijia only said two lines (or rather 15 secs.) and she got a further discount.

jia: ehh. sam, we abit over budget lehs. ur cake cann cheaper?

sam: ok. how much u wannn then?

jia: $12 (or lower i dunn rmb)

sam: okays.

grrww.
biased guy! =PpP
no choice.
jia got mei li!
ii dunn have.
wahahas.

anw.
had that celebration.
passed dem our gifts.
xuanxuan's - a family photo of theirs.
wit shin, jia n her.
denn the frames r separated.
while connected using magnets.
n is so cute la~
the wawa(s).

xiuxiu's - photo frame too.
of the blue pants guy!
lols.
not very convenient to reveaL who HE is.
if not.
i might get killed by both of dem.
n.
it is a photo of e blue pants guy being half naked! (top. if u r wondering)
WAHAHAS.
n e suay thing is.
he was in e fdcourt when she opened e pressie!!!
cann u imagine e scenerio??!
frame was one with the wordings -kiss me-
with a spring attached lips on e right.

grw.
i forgot to take pictureS!!!
arhhh.
the frame is cute la~
lols.

that is celebration number one.

they dinn suspect anything abt the evenin event.
cus.
we lied to dem.
sayin me n jia got stuff to do.
so not joinin them in the night.

so aft ag's lesson
we rushed off to BB to prepare e stuff.
nearly got caught by dem.
cus when me n yoshi came up from shop n save,
they r on their way to level two.
so if happenly they turned ard.
we r dead.
lols.

reached mac's wit all e stuff.
arrange e tables etc.
denn waited for their grand arrival.

minmin n momo was stationed outside.
since they were caught b4 tt.
though xiuxiu they all still dinn suspect them!

yoshi n liza hid with the melted ice cream (our cake)

jia n me in the toilet with e combined pressie.

came out of e toilet aft e first song.
lols.
denn i heard from them say they almost cried!!
whee~
such a success yea??

forced the guys to wear that cutie party hats provided!!
HAHAs.
is ironic when u c pd freaked out while sister nanny wears it on him.
or when u c marcus givin that stupidest face when he wore it!
or when kiev removed his hat and looks like some taitai!!

had some phototakin n ate the food.

played billybanja which turns out more like a burstin balloon game.
lols.
some expected yet unpreventable stuff happened.
budd tink most of us handled it well.
=DD
all is over now.
so dunn tink abt it anymore.

settled ourselves at our usual place - THE PLAYGROUND!
hopped there like some freak.
(just to clarify. is me only. lols.)
cus i reali miss e days in p6.
where we gathered at e playgrounds.
=DD

wow.
e playground is small la.
n crowded.
budd managed to get a place for ourselves n played to e fullest.

e spinnin stuff which i initially tout is some trampoline, which i ended being e sole survivor aft 3 or more fells.

e strings stuff which gave me an idea to wad to do with my patio.
lols.

n finally e seesaw tgt with that small 'yao-yao' (those indv chair that rocks).

ended up smelly sticky stinky n messy.
took some photos.
wit laogong!!
n yishunies!!
n MAYMAY!!
lols.
why so excited?
cus is MAYMAY!
lols.

settled down at a coffeeshop.
drank some stuff.
n walked home wit yoshi.
or rather.
yoshi acc me home.
hees.
jealous i got such great laogong huhs. =PpP

totally drained.
budd filled with joy! =D

may may xuanxuan xiuxiu n shinni came over to my house today.
wanted to use my ovenn and bakin materials.
so came aft sch (somehow drag abit la.)

reach my house 2 plus.
realised they dinn buy anything they need.
other denn flour.
=S

so went down n buy e stuffs n denn shun bian fetch may may.
busied ourselves with the pati bread.
so cool la.
denn i keep koping e food.
omg.
we r reali sooo lucky to have hosen as our sponsor.
is so xinfu!
ystd got loads of cocktail n longans to eat.
denn today is palm fruit n peach!!
c?!
so good right.
wahahas.

once we r done wit the ready made pati, n while waiting for e dough to rise,
we did sth stupid.
lols.
as usual.
=x
budd with e company of mr marcus.
yes.
he came all e way down.
whether is from sch or from house.
both are FAR.
lols.

went up to pd house.
did i mentioned me jia n xiuxiu sorta force him to bring us up his house ystd??
lols.
so we knew e way.
reach his doorstep.
gave him a call.
'hey sir, we r at ur doorsteps.'
lols.

guess wad he is doing?
SLEEPING!!!
at 7pm in the evening.
lols.
waited for him to style his hair b4 draggin him down for dinner too.
lols.
btw.
on both occasions.
his younger sis is present.
she muz b tinkin we r mad.
lols!
=S

was super worried he got pissed by us la.
aft all.
we like forced him to bring us up..
denn return his kind favour by prankin him again.
=x
budd mayb is i tink too much into it.
hope so.

went 233 to have dinner.
n thx marcus for e treat.
hehs!

i dunno why.
budd somebody suggested to play with diet coke and mentos.
so we landed ourself in the playground near pd house.
lols!
like e old days la.
in p sch.
play blind mice there.
=x

tried that expt.
budd we all humm.
so put onli one mentos.
denn ran off..
end up.
only c some foaming.
zzz.

played awhile b4 returnin to cont wit our woRk.
mummy they all was out when i returned home.
so everyone happy la.
no parents = no restriction.
lols.
though only for awhile.
denn aft tt they came.
i tink they r like zzz.
how come from 3 girLs become 4 girLs become 4 girLs plus 2 guys!
lols.
machiam havin some party at my house lidat la.
=S

they r rather fast in their work aft dinner.
finished everything ard 10.
packed up n send them off.

like so funn!!
ahahs.
budd once i moved le..
denn hais.
will b so ulu.
so small.
so zzz.
arghs.
y must move????

hais.
gtg goong-ing le!
cya!

i never knew waking up at 545am to swim at 7 is such a shiok feeling.
until today..

thats y.
i promise.
i will return!!
yippee.

and this time round.
will be 50 laps!
whee.
i m so looking forward to tuesday morning!!
hahas.

budd not afternoon.
cus that will mean seeing mr so-malcolm-like
n aso tutorial aft sch.
zzz.

n because of these early mornings.
(mon's lesson was at 8 too.)
i m extremely sleepy.

so shall end here and
nights!

wopee.
swimming!
hehs

如果一颗封闭的心可以轻易敞开，
那就不叫封闭的心了。
如果失去了沟通能力还可以轻易补回来，
那就不叫失去沟通能力。
如果问题可以这么容易决绝，
那就不叫做问题了。

如果你以为我可以轻易的以你的要求办到你所要的事，
那你太看得起我了。
我没有你想象中的那么厉害，
也不可能因为你的一句话而完全改变我自己。
这种事我恐怕永远也做不到。

有些东西是需要很多时间才可以决绝的，
有些需要很多的精力。
我想说的是：不是每样东西都像1+1= 2 那么简单。
真的不是。
而我，偏偏就是属于前者。

原谅我的无能为力，
但我觉得，你也有责任。
每样东西都要有付出才会有回报的。
加油。

went to woRk at nichii fashion city at vivo city ystd.
wow.
experience is fab.
hahas.

reach there slightly after nine.
more denn half e shops are closed. =x
under renovation-
zzz.
me and pei was tinkin..
sure not much ppL le ba..
since is like so lil shops open nia.
went in the shop.
chose our set of uniform.
OMG.
first time in my life i get to wear proper formal wear.
u know those with coat or wadeva u call it.
omg la~
i almost fainted at the sight of myself thru e mirror.
hahas.

the feelin is just so great!!
i m so chi ying xiu like.
HAHAs.
if u understand wad i mean. =x

went for a short briefing.
browse round the shop.
gosh.
e clothes are so so so nice cannn.
n cheaP!
yes.
e magic woRd.
hahas.

was tinkin of wad apparels to buy even b4 work starts. =x

-10am open shop.
few customers came in.
was tinkin.
hmmm.
great.
better denn rotting u noe.
the section i was in charge of is more of coats n evenin gowns.
so like lesser ppl will bio ard my area.
budd pei area is like..
totally another scene.
super super crowded.

p.s. the shop is in a L shaped.
denn my section is at one end of the L and hers the other.
so i only happen to get to c it when i 'bring' customer there.

as time passes.
more n more customers came in.
gosh.
FLOODED.
went outside the fitting room to help tarsha (another sales asst) to hang baCk the clothes.
cuz cann c it is startin to pile.
stood there hang, put back for like 3 to 4 hours??!!
n i dinn realised that.
hahas.
just busied myself with the work.
until pei came over n say she hungry le.
wann go eat.
went into office look at the watch.
3pm.

n sureesh says we cann leave at 4.
hahas.
aft 'lunch'
many other supervisors (i tink) came.
or maybe the owners of the shop.
denn they helped tarsha out.
so i m saved. =x

went to serve customer instead.
was like so relieved.
budd.
it was a great mistake la.
=x

cus customer always wann new stock.
other size n stuff.
so hafta go store and take for them.
the prob is.
THE STORES ARE SUPER MESSY AND PACKED.
pengs.
is not meant for human's movement. =x
more for cats n dogs.
budd no choice.
squash myself in to get the stocks.
climb up the ladder.
yes ladder.
to get the clothes on the highest rack.
n did i mention..
i m wearin HEELS.
HAHAS.
is sooo sooo omg cann =x
was runnin ard like a mad cow.
dinn even have a chance to pause to drink water.
the crowd is OMG.
luckily.
the supervisors are quite kind la.
they r rather familiar wit the stocks n will occasionally help me to take it.
whee.
denn i no need climb/crawl.
hahahs.
worked till 7pm.
sureesh asked pei.
worked till 9 cann?
siao!
our legs are like so damn pain alr.
n is like we were told to work till 4 only.
hahas.
so we sneaked off. =x

was dead beat when we reach the mrt.
denn we gie kiang.
still wann go outram park eat bobosho.
end up.
bobosho close again. -.-
ken.
please stop movin la.
we cant even eat it when we crave for it.
ate 1A curry puff, butterfly fritters for dinner.
hahas.
went into 7-11.

guess who we saw?

yeo!!
hahass!!!!
for those who dunn0 who he is, too bad
=PpP
for those who know.
I SAW HIM.
hahas.
so excited for wad.
i dunno.
just EXCITED
hahas.
n i realised his ears r big. =x
lols.
kks.
stop bad mouthing him. =x
acc pei to crap with him for a while
b4 we r finally willing to leave that place.

reach home.
feel so dead.
lols.
budd i tink.
is mr sureesh is willin to pay me 5.50 per hour.
i will go baCk.
hahas.
cus.
other denn the fact that the job doesnt worth 4.50..
it is still very enjoyable.
minus the leg pain cum ache.
n a tired body.
hahas.

so mr sureesh.
please consider la.
i so like the uniform LA!. =x

btw.
i dinn get to meet xuanyu ge.
though my work is like ying xiu helpin out in xuanting jie's shop.
budd XUANYU GE dinn come over. =x
lols.

kks.
stop crappin le.
cya!

平常只用十分钟走回家的我，
今天很反常的用了二十分钟。
是因为他陪我回家的关系吗？
err.. 不是。
而且，他只是陪我到他家的那站。

回家的路途想了好多好多。
想着，以后我该怎样适应那陌生的环境。
想着，以后要一个人走回家的我该怎么办好。
我想我的依赖性太强了吧。

我怕我会不能适应。
我怕我会受不了那孤单的感觉。
我真的好怕。

我也怕我会很想念这儿。
想念到会讨厌新家的地步。
这次真的不是因为叛逆。
这，只是我露出了我胆怯，懦弱的一面。

我讨厌寂寞。
我讨厌孤独。
不要问我为什么。
就是讨厌。

虽然我知道，如果把金口打开，
就该会有人陪我回家了。
但，我真的不想太依赖他。
偶尔偶尔还好。
要我叫他常常陪我，
我自己也感到过分。
而且，
我也不想引起不必要的误会。

莫名的伤感就这样一一浮现。
这样的。。
拖着沉重的脚步到了家门口。

今天有点emo.
所以写的东西有点怪怪的。
应该是离搬家的日子越来越近的关系吧。。
所以感伤多些些。

哎哟。
黄娈婷！
你只是搬家罢了。
又不是要出国。
=X
抱歉嘛。
人家，
人家就感情丰富嘛。
呵呵。

原以為空間阻隔可以忘卻你
原以為時間流逝可以淡忘你
原以為腦海裡不再有你的回憶
原以為心靈深處沒有你的痕跡而這都是虛幻的，全憑一相情願

是你帶給了我美好而甜蜜的回憶
是你留給了我那刻骨銘心的印痕
是你為我送來了無數的溫馨祝福
是你為我栽種下了那顆友誼種子
而這卻是真實的，仍然歷歷在目

為何你音訊全無彼此失去聯絡
為何你忍心把我視為陌路人呀
是你的錯？還是我的錯
那又是誰傷害了誰的心呢


記得你曾說過
無法原諒對方的過錯
就無法讓彼此友誼長存
如今我將要說
朋友的傷害往往是無心的
不求回報的幫助卻是真心的
忘記那些無心的傷害
銘記那些對你的真心

每次意外的驚喜——是你
每次溫馨的留言——是你
每次鼓勵的話語——是你
每次節日的祝福——是你
每日早晨的問候——是你
每次的跌倒再起——是你
是你，是你，還是你
你已給我留下了不滅的痕跡
叫我如何把你淡忘

時間匆匆而逝
日子悄悄而來
抹不去的仍是
那甜美的追憶

must be thinking which guy i m tinkin of right now huh?
izzit him.
or him?
or him*?
lols.

ALL WRONG!

this is dedicated to all my friends out there.
who happens or not happen to see this!
hehs.
a meaningful poem indeed huh?
=D