lookin forward to sunset
more precisely, to night time.
awaiting patiently for their arrival
hopin tt i will have a gd night sleep tt day.

yes.
not havin gd sleep this few nights.
keep havin dreams.
though not nightmares.
budd it tires me out.
esp aft one whole day of sch,
plus one whole evenin of nags.
endin it wit one whole night of dreams doesnt sound gd in any way.
does it?
i doubt so.

been sleepin late recently.
due to diff kinda reasons.
from waiting for e arrival of e microbio pics.
to doing fd pres assignment.
so mr samuel chan.
u noe how impt tt night's sleep is to me alr.

ok.
he doesnt read my blog.
(i hope he doesnt. =x)
so i m jux fa-ing lao sao.
cuz i still feel great over e attitudin session.
bleahx.
xiuxiu will understand y.
wahahax.
sounds so bad.
=x
budd.
for destress purposes. its reali fun.
ooops.
enuff of him.
enuff of sleep.

it jux irritates me more.
wheneva i tout of e fact tt i cant sLeep early and well.
arghx.
my bed.
how i miss ur embrace..
=xxx
i m gonna talk nonsense again.
so.
i better stop here.

nights all out there.

时间真的可以冲淡一切吗?
包括感情?
亲情呢?
友情?
愛情?

人真的如此吗?

藕断思连

did i get it correct?
arghx.
e meaning is there la.
lala~

anywayss.

pizza durian puff popiah are all so nice.

though they are F-A-T-T-E-N-I-N-G.

bOo.

all i noe is
its not gonna be me.

tired.
i need sleep

coffee tea or me

this sentence suddenLy came to me.
theres no specific reason.
jux cuz xiuxiu they all keep mentionin it last few days..
denn now.
suddeNly dinn hear this a bit weird. =x

everything happened very rapidly.
i m still not sure wad has happen n wad is gg to happen.
budd.
i tink there shld be nth much ba..
it should b cuz THEY tink too much.
=x

yupx.
i dinn gave a secoNd tout abt that apparently.
untiL they told me abt e weird incidents..
denn now..
feeL so uneasy now.
n yes.
i m running away (again)
buddeN.
i fiNd it reaL weird la.
to jux tok to him again lyt normal frenx.
is abit sad la..
cuz.
somehow i 'lost' a frenn.
hehx.
budd i will get over it.
SOON.
=))

anw.
went town aft sch today.
omgg.
i m lyt so high cann..
cuz this week is reali much more free denn during e break.
pengx.
sounds ridiculous.
budd is true.

so me xuanxuan xiuxiu n jia stop at dobby ghaut to eat lunch.
e indochinese food at e food court is so nice cannn.
omgg.
e grilled chicken is SOO yummy.
although abit saltish.
=x
denn we saw e iron-ons!!
n we went bonkers over it..
hehe.
flip thru practically ALL e iron-ons.
n we each bought at least 3 sets back..
=x
got b/c/l stead de.
erm. is our secret lang.
lolx.
denn got 319.
n me n jia bought our initials.
n a set to share.
omgg.
our labcoat gonna be so nice la!!
whee..
no one plain white labcoat le.

yea.
denn we walked ard PS before gg to centrepoint!
on e way,
saw meli n huiting.
chatted for a moment.
missed e days in sec sch la.
crap tgt.
siao tgt.
great memories. =))

gotten my HAPPY STICK.
though is lyt onli a week ago since i ate it.
it still taste YUMMY!
n e thing is..
xuanxuan n xiuxiu AGREES too.
wheeeee.
n a foolish mistake i made all this while.
its renaldo's.
not ritz.
=x
denn whole singapore onli got 3 outlets.
one east, one west, one central.
tts y.
i COULDNT fiNd my happy stick.
hehx.
slaps myself.
budd.
ITS STILL NICE!

shopped at heeren.
nono.
is WALK at heeren for awhile.
zoom into new urbans
zoom out aft clarifying wit wenkok tt e things we wann is not in tt shop.
lost track of jia n xuanxuan.
so me n xiuxiu slided in e spec shop.

she looks SPACE-ish in rectangular metallic frame.
super space-ish.
wann noe how izzit like??
go spec shop wit her.
cuz no photo-taking.
=x
yes.
we attempted to take out her hp.
to snap.
=D

moved ard heeren.
n i forgotten abt my pig.
stupid me.
forget it.
i tink there is no more production for tt pig le.
=x
sadded.
its cute la.
arhh.
i shouldnt have drop it in e first place.
fine.

zoomed to cine.
to take NEOPRINTS finally..
n.
is SO Fun cannnn..
got props to play wit.
so we lyt change here n there.
got fake hair magician/witch hats, hairbands n stuff.
so sweet cann..

yeap.
denn we rushed off aft tt.
cuz we r late for dinner.
e shopping trip is a short n rush one.
budd.
we enjoyed.
cuz.
we are that pathetic when it comes to break.
lolx..

saw e last few posts of my blog.
omgg.
i m so proud of myself.
fiNally i m updating it regularly.
bLeahx.
at least no more once in a month le.
wahahax.

budd.
overall.
i m stiLL a lazy bum.
hehx.
why?
cuz..
i jux dunn feeL lyt doin my microbio ppt..
oooops.
its overdue alr.
=xXx
budd.
i dunn tink we gave a damn la.
wahahax.
at least not me.
cuz i m stiLL staring at e report wit a bLank miNd.

arghx.
tt means.
i hafta stay up AGAIN tonight.
=((
tts sad la.
buddeN.
this weekend stiLL ok.
at least no quiz to study.
n no report to rush..
ermm.
nono.
removed e last third phrase.
my fd pres report.
awww.
budd i finished procedure n results le.
(as usual.)
denn once i KNOW wad to write for discussion.
i tink it will take another day to finish
n i m done wit it.
lalalax~
wo shi le guan zhu yi zhe.
bOo.

hmm.
gg for han han bday celebraton ltr.
hope it turns out FUN.
lalala.
great food awaits me.
=DDDDD

which means.
calories n fats wiLL soon form.
grww.
minus tt tout for tt tym being.
bLeah.

有一种莫名的失落感..
也不只为何..
知道这一切是不可能的..
但依然抱着一丝丝的希望..
Haix..
算了.

study
study
study

haix

tutorialS
tutorialS
tutorialS

hAix

case study
datasheet

at this rate.
i m gg crazy in no time
i mean reaL crazy.

arhhh
somebody HELP!!!
arghx.
forget it.
its not as if i m gonna accept anyone's help anyway.

budd i tink i reali gonna BREAKDOWN soon.
n come to tink of it.
e last breakdown was last thurs.
-.-
n it was an INCOMPLETE one LA!
cuz i dunn even have ENUFF TIME to cry.
shit hell

maybe i should reali go chill out tml with dem.
n lyt go HIGH for once.
ermx.
nope.
is go HIGH again.
=x
budd.
i m reali tired.
jux feeL lyt gg home n sleep earlier.
kk.
its abit attitude.
budd i need REST.
i tink i cann jux doze off anytime.
n tis is SERIOUS la.
=x
budd perhaps.
i should reali consider la.
denn i cann runn ard.
scream abt.
have fun.
run away from e two.
sweat it all out.
n have a good night.
=))
how nice is that.
n e tout of munchin of bbq hawaiian pizza reaLi tempts me!
wahahax.
kkx
i shall reconsider that.
=Pp

haix.
case study again.
杀了我吧 ..

been talking too much of e past recently i tink.
arghx.
its not tt i haben get over it la.
budd.
i fiNd it weird to keep talkin abt it.
some part of me will start to ask MYSELF whether i m still tinkin abt it,
tryin means to revive it, to jux ni bu all e yi hans caused.
(ok. i m WEIRD)
is lyt.
a wonderful memory.
indeed it is.
budd my wonderful mind jux refused to stop here.
it will continue.
to tink.
to ponder.
to reflect if i m wanting to get it back or stuff laa.
ermx.
how do i explain e complicated minds of a capricorn??
haix.

n on top of tt.
e dreams.
gosh.
been havin strange dreams LA.
imagine me dreamin abt him n her getting back.
OMG.
n i seriously tink for tt past few days.
i have difficulty DIFFERENTIATING whether it is reality or dream.
i meann.
they r lyt so reaL cann?
until it is drivin me crazy.

mayb i did fantasize.
budd not to e extent of havin plans n stuff to get him back.
gosh.
forget it.
i dunn understand wad is happenin to me either.
shitty.
shall open up my beloved brain someday to c wad is in there!

arhh.
i shall jux psycho myself tt it is due to e stress!!
yesh.
stress it is.
my beloved brain.
heard me??
stop tormenting me.
arghx.
its drivin me crazy..

arhh..
irritated.

tt beloved mum of mine is getting more n more unreasonable.
grrww.
trying to dig out stuff to nag at scold at grumble at.
in other words.
my house is in a havoc.
screams everynight.
ok. not screams laa.
jux..
loud shouts n replies. =x

i m rude.
budd i cant b bothered abt it esp wit an unreasonable person.
cann she b lyt more clear-minded.
tink before she tok lyt she ALWAYS tout us.

sch starts at 12.
need go early for checkin of lab results.
so hafta b in sch ard 11.
woke up at 9.
reasonable wad.
too much mehx?
she says i LOVE laying on e bed till e sun is shinin on my butt.
no lorx.
when i woke up, my room is still DARK.
bleahx.
she wasnt at home denn.
reached home ard 10. (i mean her)
needed to rush for HER lessons at 11 i tink.
denn started screamin ard.
say clothes haben wash.
ASK ME WASH LE DENN LEAVE HOUSE.
dots.
denn i will be lyt damn late la.
it takes one hour plus to finish e whole washin.
denn plus ten minutes of hanging laundries.
i will b LATE even if i need not hafta go sch early.
so i replied.
no time no time. (in chi)
wash le aso no one hang.
erm.
yupx.
indirectly i m saying she is NOT gonna hang it even aft i wash. =x
so who cares.

so she got damn pissed off la.
started shouting.
say wad i woke up so late denn no need do housework.
denn wake up eat breakfast denn go out le.
ask me go stay in hotel/hostel better.
there provide free service for laundry blah blah blah.

gosh.
I M E ONE DOING E LAUNDRY cann?
not you.
i m e one who ALWAYS got late cuz of u inconsiderate peep cann.
always hafta WAIT for e laundry to b done.
denn cann hang le denn go out.

one tym i tried rushin out w/o hanging e clothes.
end up.
reached home 6.
e clothes r still in e machine.
pengx.
so who is e one who needs to stay in hotel?
n if given a chance n e money.
i will.
slog for u n denn u replied this.

back to e quarrel.
suddenly.
she stopped.
so relieved.
finally.
denn she started again in less denn 10 secs.
pengx pengx.
HER: i tout u start sch at 12?
y no time.
ME: cuz. i need go early to check my results.
HER: check wad check. u so clever de ma. cann use computer to check right. since u everything aso computer come first.
ME: mdm. is LAB results. NOT COM/QUIZ/ wadsoeva results u r tinkin of.
anw. i gtg. bye.
HER: yaya. everything aso u say. everything aso u noe. blah blah blah (i dinn hear e others la. cuz e door alr slammed shut. =x)

budd i replied sth outside e door.
i somewad shouted.
of cuz u dunnO.
u dunn seem interested in my affairs ANW!
=x

grrww.
angry.
super pissed.
not havin PMS lorx.
denn started attituding ppL.
kaox.
luckily i not havin PMS.
if not it wunn end there. =x

n i m lyt SOO pissed until.
I FORGOT MY EARRINGS!
i forgot sth THAT important cann.
all thx to HER.
humphs.

arhh.
wadeva.
my anger has subsided aft venting it out.
gtg do my fd chem datasheet le.

warning: tis is gg to be a long long entry..
with crappy me talking. =x

my bike craze is still not over yet!!
i m lyt eyeing at all e bikes on e roads.
hopin tt one of it will be mine someday.
omg.
i saw one red n black de today
is lyt so HOT cann.
denn another one is white de.
budden on second tout, these colours lyt so common..
so maybe..
i wann a green n yellow de
i m gonna search for e diff bikes ltr..
wahahax.
i m so excited cann.
for e first tym i hoped n prayed tt my bday will come SOON!!!
okok.
its lyt onli 5 months away
budd i cant wait!
i reali cant.
omg.
n i need MONEY to learn tt.
i dunn tink dad n mum will sponsor me la.
arhh.
i cant b bothered abt tt first.
mayb i will jux register denn ask dem lend me money.
or mayb cann ge siao or go tehn my dad.
arhh.
i dunn care wadeva method i gonna use!!
i wann to get my license asap la!!

=p=p

kk.
enuff of tt craze.
if not i will go crazy.
n u ppl too.
=x

anw. e bz wk is OFFICIALLY over.
tt stupud hectic week wit 4 quiz to study is OVER!
n i used lyt onli one day to recuperate from all e mental stress!!
denn hafta chiong for another 2 quiz.
haix.
sometimes come to tink abt it.
reali a bit dumb la.
over tt dunno how many percent nia denn work until lidat.
haix.
wad to do.
e whole class lyt so pia.
if i aso dunn work hard.
will b laggin behind.
=((
luckily they knew to ENJOY too..
wahhaax.
went amk to eat dinner aft sch on fri.
cuz kind-hearted dr lim say tutorial cancelled!
denn aft tt.
wanted to go to this fountain to talk.
wahahax.
we couldnt found e fountain.
denn i saw tis thingy call e PLAYGROUND!!
so i dragged all of dem there.
=x

played on e slides.
budd not slippery de.
so sian la.
budden they got this two poles.
u noe.
when in p sch.
denn e two parallel poles we played.
denn cann hang upisde down de.
rmb?
ya.
tt playground got two aso la.
budd is in a row de.
not e usual one we used to play.
denn i tried hanging upside down on it la.
keep trying.
first attempt. belt stuck.
second attempt. belt stuck (again)
pek cek.
REMOVE MY BELT. =x
third attempt. jump not high enuff.
wah..
denn i keep jumpin n jumpin.
denn jia marcus pd all starin at me.
=x
finally. e dunno-how many attempts.
i jumped up!!!
whee.
lyt so high cann.
sat on e pole.
denn omg.
i dunn dare to hook. =x
cuz is lyt so long since i last played.
hand sweatin lyt hell.
budd.
i m a stubborn girl as everyone noe.
so.
i still insisted on letting go.
n.
i fell.
=x
bang my head on e pole la.
denn i did 3/4 somersault.
accordin to wad jia said.
denn i tink i shocked everyone dere la.
marcus keep sayin will pain not??
dunno will clot not.
denn pd was sayin dunn try le la.
we r not lyt in e past le.

ooops.
instead of listening.
as usual this stubborn ting.
tried again.
denn this tym round.
i tried hooking from e bottom.
lyt so irony la.
when i was abt to reach.
xuanxuan came to my rescue!!!
she half hugged me up.
denn!!!!!
i SUCCEEDED!!!
whee~~~

aft tt.
pd did e back flip.
e somersault which i almost completed.
yupx.
he did front n back la.
omg.
so cool cann.
budd.
tts not my qiang xiang.
so i dinn try.
=x

crawl up to e top of e monkey bar.
i got fear of heights.
denn my palms r sweatin lyt hell. =x
sat for a while wit jia n marcus.
denn came down.

aft tt played catchin.
=x
yeaps.
at nine in e night.
catchin at e playground.
omg.
initially onli me jia xiuxiu n xuanxuan playin.
cuz jiashin sandals spoil le.
denn aft tt xiuxiu tired le.
jia took over as catcher.
denn pd joined in.
omg.
we ran SILENTLY for 15 mins i tink.
wahahax.
xuanxuan got caught la.
cuz she slipped. =x
denn me n pd were lyt runnin from one end to another end.
in e end too tired.
so rest tgt.
wohooo~~

luckily we din go on.
if not.
i dunn tink i cann hold for long.
wahahax.
i m weak~
=pPp

went home aft tt.
stinko sweaty.
ooops.

p.s. c i told u its long. =D