xiao shen(my dad's sister-in-law) caLLed ystd mornin.
sounDed surpriseD to hear mi pick up e phone.
cuz she expecteD mi to follow my parents back to m'sia.
den...
perhaps she tout tt she forgotten e date they r gg back, she askeD mi whether it was tt nite tt we r taking e bus.
hearin my ans, she sounDed reaL disappointeD.
reaLi.
jux lyt how my grandma sounds when i told her for e thirD tym tis yr tt i m not gg back wit them.
=(
out of a suddeN,
i envy aLL those wit their reLatives livin round dem.
at least, they dun require 18 hours to traveL to n fro from their reLative house.
imagine visitin ur grandparents, aunts, uncles n cousins for lyt once a yr?
tis kinDa feeLin..
onLy perhaps a few wiLL understanD.
suddenLy feeL lyt movin back into m'sia to live wit them for e FIRST tym of my life.
though i always hateD e present life of mine..
i NEVER tout of movin back at tis age at least.

i noe i resenteD appLyin to b a s'poreaN.
buddeN.
tt was becuz..
i noe wit tis 's'porean' kinda identity..
i wiLL b drifteD further apart wit my cousins
DEFINITELY.

buddeN, even wit tis kinDa tinkin.
i NEVER intenDed to move back (at tis age) to live wit my reLatives.
now..
i jux feeL lyt being "one of dem"
it sounds jux so great to pop by ur grandma house once everyday..
or once every weeK.
(tts wad my cousins ALWAYS do.)
esp...
if u noe.
u r gonna regret if u dun spenD more tym wit her now.

i misseD e weeKs i spenD there during my vacation.
reaLi misseD it lots.
e days when i shuffleD betweeN my grandma n my aunt house.
draggin my lil luggage here n there.
from taiping to ipoh to alor setar.
its jux so great.
esp..
when u c ur grandma grinnin from ear to ear all e tym.
(i dunno whether izzit becuz of mi tt she is smiLing so sweetLy or becuz she HAS been smiLin aLL aLong. in conclusioN, i noe u r gonna say tt i have beeN spenDing too lil tym wit my grandma. but even if u DUN say, i noe tt. =p)

awww..
if skl doesnt starts now.
i wanna go back.
even if it is BY MYSELF.
i dun care.
i dun care whether dad is gonna object.
i dun care whether it is gonna b a loneLy ride.
i jux wanna go back.
to spend great days tt i wiLL not gonna get in s'pore.
bleahx.
so hols.
FASTER CUM>>>>
I SAY: HOLS, U BETTER CUM AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
I DUN CARE WAD YA GONNA DO TO HURRY OVER. BUDDEN.. JUX RUSH HERE.
so i can go back n shuffleD between e house of aLL my aunts uncles blah blah blah.

okies.
i m bein idiotic here i noe.
bud.
i dun looK Lyt i care, do i?
bOo.

arhhh...
tt gem thingy is irritatin mi to heLL.
omg.
waitin VERY patientLy for tt thing to load.
luckiLy mummy ask mi to scan sth jux now.
den at least i m a tiny winny bit occupied.
finaLLy.
e thing loaded le.
den realiseD. darn.
all e courses haf been taken up.
e courses wit e most vacanices r those lyt computerin thingy.
thx horx.
bud reaLi no thx.
=P

okies.
i m tinkin of whether to sign up for calenDer n astronomy or human resources.
both sounD equaLLy sianx.
bud no choice.
tts wad u have to pay for being lazy to get up in e mornin.
bleahx.
arghx.

nvm.
at least tmL sounDs betta.
shu n boon comin over to bake brownies.
den aft tt gg jo house to eat fondue.
omg.
sounDs so great huh?
lolx.
yupx.
jux pRay tt this gem thing ends sooN.
n meanwhiLe.
shun bian pRay tt my mum wiLL huRRy go sLeep insteaD of stanDin quietLy behiNd mi n shocKin' mi.
okies.
she jux did.
arghx.
finaLLy. e stuffs r up.
b back sooN.
=D

aww.
skool startin next week.
wth.
NEXT WEEK!!!
n tts when my nightmare begins.
duh.
life gonna b.
schooL schooL schooL.
projects presentations tutoriaLs.
pengx.

mum n dad gg back malaysia tis thurs.
AGAIN.
cant tag along.
they r against e idea of mi skippin 3 days of schooLx.
how wonderfuL.
e best thing is.
tis tym round..
bro is NOT taggin along.
OMG.
tt means.
i hafta take care of him.
sianx.
-fainting.

eh.
i suddenLy wanna eat kit kat carameL.
tinkin back.
it has been long since i had a bar of chocoLates.
no kid.
very long.
bleahx.
so i gonna go down now n buy a bar up.
bOo.

wow.
i jux realised it is lyt mid oct le.
last yr ard tis tym, we r stiLL struggLin wit our pracs.
now..
we r lyt enjoyin life aLready.

watchin my juniors strugglin wit their o,
i suddenLy felt so glaD tt i had it aLL done. =P
no more tys.
no more past yr papers.
no more late nytex in skl.

n i can watch as much tv as i can now!!!
wahahax.
last tym stiLL hafta worry wad if watch le no tym finish
teo de math papers.
lee de bio paper.
mdm tan de phy.
lolx.
now...
lyt i care.
bleahx.

gotten my results for sem exam.
is quite ok.
at least i passed all e subj.
i passed MIP.
i PASSED!
lolx.
e marker muz b markin wit his eyes closeD.
bOo.
budden.
when i sat down n tout abt it.
i m not quite satisfied wit it.
reali not.

i dunno wad happen.
i jux dun lyt e results.
tis is not e kinda results tt i wanted.
i hav high expectations i noe.
very high in fact.
for those who knew mi weLL, u guys wun b surpriseD wit tis comment of mine.
lolx.

hmmm.
i m lyt so sian diaO now.
dunno wad ta do.
everyday sit in front of e com.
lay in my bed tiLL late mornin den wake up.
waitin to grow fatter each day. =X
sh't.

i hafta slim down.
omg.
i muz.
cannot.
arghx.
hmmm.
no more junks.
no more.
arghx.
i muz endure tiLL end of nov.
hahax.
arghx.
wish mi lucks... =D

yippee.
tmL class chalet le.
no nid stay at home rot liaox.
actually.
i dun tink i hab been rottin anw.
lyt gg out everyday lidat.
(tts wad mum said. bleahx.)

told my dad gg chalet.
den he looks up.
n say: ohhh. why no consent form de?
i wanna faint on e spot.
he was kiddin obviously.
budden.
tis joke VERY e lame..

den e next moment..
he suddenLy said: oie. ltr come back pregnant how?
*smacks forehead*
-adui.
den my mum still jokingly teLL him.
den someone wiLL caLL u grandpa.
n they started tokkin abt wad names to give my child.
-omg.

i m surprised i din faint on e spot.
how nice to have such parents at home huh.
aww.
sianx.
tmL chalet le.
den i haben even started packing.
lolx.

so lazy now.
i onLy wan MY BED.
okies.
i noe i have been sleepin lyt 10 to 12 hours everyday.
yesh
ten to twelve.
lolx.
dun nid xian mu.
bOo.
yawns.
so tired now.
i gonna take a shower n sleep.
=X
be back aft chalet. =PP

hey~
everybody listen up!!!


lolx.
deres nth much actuaLLy..
it is jux tt..
jux tt..
jux tt..

i miss my school's fooDcourt 1 green apple plus green yakult.
aww...
how nice will it be if i m munching on a bowL of yong tau fu or a bowl of jap fooD with a cup of fruit juice beside it...

wohoo~
went sentosa wit jia jo n boon today.
den now all red.
-omg.
we were so WEIRD lorx.
go sentosa intend to do some tanning de.
den we wore short sleeves n track shorts. -.-
tink we r e only one dere who r so covered.
hahax.
den now body got two tone.
how nice.

aft tt went to try out the luge.
e new thingy at sentosa.
so cooL lorx.
macam go-kart lidat.
went down e slope den e four of us lyt siao ding dong lidat. =X
hopefully no one notices us.
hahax.
den aft tt take chairlift up to e top again.
tt one has a feeling of being in a cable car.
so cooL.
took photos for each other.
mi n jia one chair.
jo n boon was behind.
den so scary lorx.
is so far from e ground.
n i trembled.
i m afraid of heights. =X

aft tt we went chomp chomp.
jia finally got her wish granted.
ate a whole lot of fooD.
yummy.
carrot cake, fried kway tiao, hokkien mee, satays, chicken wings...
so filling.

den thx to jia.
we board e WRONG bus.
cuz got 2 bus wit e same no, gg diff area.
those who hang ard dere shld understand la.
hahax.
so we went hougang instead of amk.
den NEARLY hop onto another wrong bus again..
n if we did,
we gonna go HOLLAND V.
=S

reached home jux in tym to watch e ending of chi zi cheng long.
now...
i gonna take another shower.
sit in front of e tv till 11 n hop onto my dear bed.
=DD
bb

arghx.
i dun wanna go daiko tml.
arghx.
dun wan.
(okies. no one forced mi to go.)
my conscious is disturbin mi hell lots.
i have been lyt pon-ing for so many tyms.
okies. i had VALID reasons.
but nevertheless, i still feeL bad.
REAL BAD.
for not being able to learn e songs in tym.
sianx.

mayb.
mayb.
i shaLL jux quit huh?
haix.
den no more concert le.
tt concert which i looked so forward to.
haix.
will tink thru it n c how ba.
eh.
tell ya a secret.
I FORGOT ALL E PREVIOUS SONGS I LEARNT.
tell ya.
e seniors gonna faint on e spot tmL if i m gg.
wahhahax.
oppx.
i so bad.
=X

bleahx.
i noe i m gettin more n more lazy...
bud i dun care.
lolx.

tml got daiko.
zzz.
abit sianx now.
cuz suddenLy find tt daiko nid lots of commitment too.
lan diaO.
i simply dislikes things tt requires loads of commitment.
yucks.
=p=p=p

still tinkin whether wanna quit daiko not lorx.
cuz is lyt.
i reali cant do weLL in tt field.
den tt will b equal to waste of tym lorx.
n energy.
n yesh.
other ppl tym too. =X
i jux dun lyt tt.

sianx.
everytym c tt alloysius teach mi until wanna vomit out blood..
i feel so bad.
lolx.
n i cant do anything abt it.
hey.
its not tt i dun wanna learn.
jux tt.
i reali cant get it la.
=X

haix.
lets c how it goes..
reali dun wanna quit.
budden...
everytym when wanna go back for training..
jiu a bit sian sian.
cuz..
i m considered one of e lousiest dere.
=X
tts a sad fact.
lousy slow no commitment.
=X
haix.

i tink i look forward more to tml settlers' thingy.
tts fun n better in many ways. =p
tt aso means i gonna pon half day daiko.
=X

heyhey.
my brownies..
r NICE.
yummy yummy.
=D

*sweep away dust*

aherm.
seems lyt yrs ago since i last update.
=X
lazy plus busy.
tts MY reason. =P
(okies, e 2nd one is abit unbelievable.)
hahax.

been rottin at home actuaLLy.
budden.
jux feeL lyt lying on my bed n readin e storybooks.
bleahx.
i jux dun feeL lyt bloggin or chattin.
so have been MIA-ing in e nytex. =X

went for e personaL groomin n make up course ystd.
hmmm.
not bad.
but i m still not groom in any sense. =P
okies.
is mainly abt -how ya wear ur clothes- n stuffs lidat.
more on outfits kinda thingy.
overall, still ok for mi.
kinda usefuL too.
budden...
i dun tink it reali gonna make a diff in my ltr part of my life.
=P
i m far too lazy to b bother abt my clothings. =P

e makeup course..
is betta in a sense.
more fun.
n hands on.
ermx.
e effect - i tink i looK lyt xu chun mei no. 2
lolx.
okies.
tts wad i tink.
jux doesnt lyt e effects produced from makeup.
for e tym being.
hopefuLLy i will change in e future.
lolx.

den mum ask mi to try doin it at home today.
cuz ystd when i reached home, e makeup sorta faded.
(i rushed home to watch fa yi X dang an. =X)
-omg.
my bro says.
'jie, nxt tym pls dun do tis kinda thingy at home.
esp. somewhere b4 dinner.'
- =X -
i dun mean it bro.
MUM REQUESTED IT.
eh.
i tried my very best le.
lolx.
mayb e colour combi wasnt ryte.
aiyah.
forget it.
nxt tym reali nidda put on make up den ask help from either -- cheng pei, booNie, my reaL mum n mayb siti or joLin?
hahax.
we shaLL c..
lolx.

sianx.
tmL makin brownie.
yipppeeE!!
fooD.
=X
tt means.
i gonna increase in amt of fat, calories n WEIGHT.
zzz
if theres someway to allow us to slim NATURALLY w/o much determination...
haix.
forget it.
DETERMINATION.

mummy. drag mi to e gym...
lolx.